Do you feel like you embarrassed yourself even though you didn't?

[Cheese_it]

Haha all the damn time. I overanalyze whether I appear like an idiot or if I said something awkward. The more I analyze every second of the conversation, the more nervous I get ugh. I can't even concentrate on the subject and wish the hang out ends asap. Even after the social event ends, I cry at home and beat myself up.

It used to be really bad that I prevented myself from talking to new people. But I did read online that that people are only thinking about themselves. They are concerned about their personal problems and their mind wanders elsewhere. Another tip that helps is that I'm in control of who I interact with. If I don't enjoy the conversation myself, I will not talk with them much. I have to judge if I feel happiness or dreadful whenever I encounter a new individual. Typically I gravitate to those who are nonjudgmental and accepting of who I am