Former AOA Member Kwon Mina Addresses Shin Jimin Being The Victim, Her Past And Current Hardships

[My Everything]

I know it’s a lot… You say it’s enough. You’re sick and tired of this. You’re starting to think Shin Jimin is the victim now. I know very well that the more I do this, the more people will criticize me and look at me negatively. But I’m not crazy. I used to be a bright person who loves to laugh a lot. In fact, my evaluations only diagnose me as severely depressed. It doesn’t say I’m bipolar or schizophrenic. I have social anxiety, social phobia, panic disorder, panic seizures, and depression. Since I was young, I told myself I have to be the breadwinner for my family. I decided I’ll play the role of my father. So I worked a lot of part time jobs. Because I had to quit school, I experienced a lot of things. Some of those experiences hurt me. But no matter what, I focused on making money. I focused on staying strong. So I have no regrets, no pain. I take after my father, so I have a cool head and a brave heart.

Since I was 17 until I turned 27, I was bullied by Shin Jimin. I had no idea why, but she hurt me daily with her words and actions. As I grew into adulthood, through my early to mid 20s, I believed that if I tried my best and worked harder than everyone else — if I give her no reason to hate me — then unnie will learn to like me too. Looking back now, I don’t understand why I decided to endure it all, pushing myself to accept and even getting myself on medication. I was a fool.

By the time I turned 26 years old, I was at the end of my rope. Before my contract expired, I tried to take my own life twice, by taking hundreds of sleeping pills. But I only passed out for a few days and ended up surviving it just fine. If you have never been through this, you don’t know what I heard, what I was put through, what completely unreasonable things I was scolded for. Live a decade like I did, you wouldn’t be able to forget either.

You know what’s even worse? I never thought to collect evidence, like the medical records from my psychiatrist visits. The members who spent more time with me back then probably remembers though. But they also didn’t go through what I went through. They’re not me. And they may have stayed by my side and even criticized Shin Jimin on my behalf… so I might have taken them to really be on my side. But none of those people spoke up for me. None of them ever will. Well, maybe except one friend. And the other victim who got bullied like me. And I think there’s one other person who might agree to be my witness…That’s all I have. I have never been able to fight back. I’ve never received a sincere apology. [Shin Jimin] may have said the words, “I’m sorry.” But she also said she doesn’t remember anything. She forced the apology out of her mouth and left my house looking completely agitated. I don’t even know why she came if she was going to act like that. As soon as she got to my house, she became all worked up and even started looking for a knife. And I had no idea the male team leader and other managers would come too. I was in my night slip when I sat down to talk to them.

Anyway, here’s what I keep trying to tell everyone. You keep asking, “Is it not enough that I made her retire from the entertainment industry?” No. I still have nightmares about that person. I have to take more and more pills because of her. I keep wanting to hurt myself and die. When I ask myself why I feel the way I do, I can only think of her as the reason. Why did I upload the picture of my bloody wrist? I wanted her friends to see. Maybe they’ll let her know. I’ve been trying to get in touch with her but she won’t answer me. I don’t know if she changed her number or what.

Self harm? I do it at least once every three days. It’s not her body, it’s mine. My family suffers with me. The people around me worry about me. They want to know why I keep doing this… I do it because I think all this is so unfair, yet there is no way for me to resolve it. It has been so long since I stopped having motivation for anything. I cry over nothing and everything. To live like this… To see myself live on like this, sometimes I feel like it might be better that I stop living. To be honest, I’m not so scared anymore.

But really though. I really, really want to sit down one on one with her and talk it out. Fight it out. Just get an apology… or something. A decade is a long time. You all may never understand, but I am the victim that was involved and I remember everything. I will remember it forever. I had to give up on the career that used to be my goal. I had to walk out of my own dream come true. So no, unless you too have gone through exactly what I went through, you will never know what I felt back then and why I keep living like this.

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[Lizzo]

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 And the other victim who got bullied like me

Is she potentially referring to Choa????????

[bumpbumplove]

16 minutes ago, Lizzo said:

Is she potentially referring to Choa????????

Have been thinking about this, especially she suddenly quit and is now trying to make a come back.

[sawarin]

22 minutes ago, Lizzo said:

Is she potentially referring to Choa????????

choa could’ve taken the opportunity to come out after mina and really bury jimin at the moment. 

does anyone know what ended up happening about the pictures of self-h that she posted? last i checked on twitter it was still a stolen picture from a gore site. 

[lighterxx]

23 minutes ago, sawarin said:

choa could’ve taken the opportunity to come out after mina and really bury jimin at the moment. 

does anyone know what ended up happening about the pictures of self-h that she posted? last i checked on twitter it was still a stolen picture from a gore site. 

they said its stolen, but apparently they are just similar pictures thats what i heard, so it was mina 

[Shinki]

1 hour ago, My Everything said:

By the time I turned 26 years old, I was at the end of my rope. Before my contract expired, I tried to take my own life twice, by taking hundreds of sleeping pills

This reminded me she took hiatuses due "enteritis" and this makes me wonder if that was really it...

[Danee Danee]

1 hour ago, Lizzo said:

Is she potentially referring to Choa????????

You forgot how Mina said Choa was part of the bullying/bystanders group and she is going to reveal all the big bad things Choa did to her. But since it was right after Choa announced a comeback to industry and years after she left the group, it didn't resonate well with people so Mina deleted and never ever talked about it. Choa is first logical person to think about here, Mina knows. If there was another victim in this bullying they would most likely already come out. But not even staff or friends did like in other bullying cases.

 

Until Mina gets rid of the vitriol she has for Jimin, she won't get better. She doesn't want apology at all. And tbh I'm not surprised Jimin doesn't want to pick her calls or even changed her number. Nothing she can say would help the situation. This is something Mina needs to do for herself. But it's easier to blame someone for everything which went wrong with your life. 

Edited May 1, 2021 by Danee Danee

[Nev Schulman]

I really wish I could talk to her. Her scars run deep... it is going to be hard for her to let this not ruminate in her brain since she went through it for years. But she needs to know that sometimes you cannot get an apology or an explanation from those who hurt you. If Jimin cared she would have done much better but once again she apologised only because she got exposed. I don't think Jimin being remorseful will help her as much as she thinks.

[Jikrytae]

1 hour ago, Danee Danee said:

You forgot how Mina said Choa was part of the bullying/bystanders group and she is going to reveal all the big bad things Choa did to her. But since it was right after Choa announced a comeback to industry and years after she left the group, it didn't resonate well with people so Mina deleted and never ever talked about it.

Receipts or it didn't happen. 

[pinkpanda_spirit]

I honestly think she should quit sns, it won’t do her any good...

[mrs.otter]

Why care about a human trash like Jimin? Girl, let it go. Someone should tell Mina she should stop trying to catch her attention. Jimin doesn't deserve it. 

[dream thief]

2 hours ago, Danee Danee said:

You forgot how Mina said Choa was part of the bullying/bystanders group and she is going to reveal all the big bad things Choa did to her. But since it was right after Choa announced a comeback to industry and years after she left the group, it didn't resonate well with people so Mina deleted and never ever talked about it. Choa is first logical person to think about here, Mina knows. If there was another victim in this bullying they would most likely already come out. But not even staff or friends did like in other bullying cases.

 

Until Mina gets rid of the vitriol she has for Jimin, she won't get better. She doesn't want apology at all. And tbh I'm not surprised Jimin doesn't want to pick her calls or even changed her number. Nothing she can say would help the situation. This is something Mina needs to do for herself. But it's easier to blame someone for everything which went wrong with your life. 

 

When did Mina say that about Choa?

 

And Mina does want an apologize. But an honest one. Imagine you were bullied for ten years, then your abuser comes to your house with a bad attitude and then tells you she doesn't remember that she bullied you.

To tell the victim that they don't remember the bullying, like it was nothing, is another slap to their face. 

Edited May 1, 2021 by dream thief

[deobizone]

Idc if there's inconsistencies in her story, ppl who take that as she's like are full of shit & prolly privileged to not have constant bullying. Like girl,  she was bullied 10 yrs,  any long period of time is bad enough but a decade...it's not even explainable how deep that trauma will run & give a lot of mental instability. I find her posting s.h. extremely triggering but I can't be mad at her about it. I was bullied for like 3ish, maybe more? Years at my job and it's better now and came & went but just each day I wanted to kms so bad. Ig closer, maybe even as much as 10 years, I was hit almost every day growing up by family. This really left me with a lot of mental issues that really doesn't go away on its own & needs proper professional help. It's seriously hard without that,  I used to have that but when I turned 18 and didn't want therapy, I wanted to stay on meds (I was on prozac at the time) bc it did help but my parents wouldn't let me see meds doctor (idk how to spell it) so I was forced off. I can get that she is not getting help that helps her currently,  that's why I was over therapy it never helped me.  A lot of times you just get a shit therapist tbh. I hope she is able to find a good one tho. Beyond that I hope she has proper support system.  I will say also sometime the therapist is not best but sometimes it's mental work you need to improve on,  you have to be open to the therapy which I never was (as having avpd). Whatever it is that makes a problem for her.  I hope she gets better and she is able to stabilize and get proper help. 

But back to what I was saying at first. If there's inconsistencies it's prolly just bc she has trauma and all, like so scary if she doesn't rmr every detail exact. Does not mean she's a liar...I would not think for a second that she is... and it's fked up that ppl have a mindset to look for holes in her story.i don't know where these ppl.are, maybe she sees them on comments online or on her ig/etc. Like I said I would not last as public figure reading strangers comments/ criticisms of me so it's hard to say she should not look at those str8 up. But I think an online cleanse,  of posting, looking at these things where she can get these criticism,  it would do her a lot of good to step away from it until she gets better.  And would prolly help her along in the process 

Edited May 1, 2021 by deobizone

[Nev Schulman]

4 hours ago, deobizone said:

Idc if there's inconsistencies in her story, ppl who take that as she's like are full of shit & prolly privileged to not have constant bullying. Like girl,  she was bullied 10 yrs,  any long period of time is bad enough but a decade...it's not even explainable how deep that trauma will run & give a lot of mental instability. I find her posting s.h. extremely triggering but I can't be mad at her about it. I was bullied for like 3ish, maybe more? Years at my job and it's better now and came & went but just each day I wanted to kms so bad. Ig closer, maybe even as much as 10 years, I was hit almost every day growing up by family. This really left me with a lot of mental issues that really doesn't go away on its own & needs proper professional help. It's seriously hard without that,  I used to have that but when I turned 18 and didn't want therapy, I wanted to stay on meds (I was on prozac at the time) bc it did help but my parents wouldn't let me see meds doctor (idk how to spell it) so I was forced off. I can get that she is not getting help that helps her currently,  that's why I was over therapy it never helped me.  A lot of times you just get a shit therapist tbh. I hope she is able to find a good one tho. Beyond that I hope she has proper support system.  I will say also sometime the therapist is not best but sometimes it's mental work you need to improve on,  you have to be open to the therapy which I never was (as having avpd). Whatever it is that makes a problem for her.  I hope she gets better and she is able to stabilize and get proper help. 

But back to what I was saying at first. If there's inconsistencies it's prolly just bc she has trauma and all, like so scary if she doesn't rmr every detail exact. Does not mean she's a liar...I would not think for a second that she is... and it's fked up that ppl have a mindset to look for holes in her story.i don't know where these ppl.are, maybe she sees them on comments online or on her ig/etc. Like I said I would not last as public figure reading strangers comments/ criticisms of me so it's hard to say she should not look at those str8 up. But I think an online cleanse,  of posting, looking at these things where she can get these criticism,  it would do her a lot of good to step away from it until she gets better.  And would prolly help her along in the process 

I agree 100% with everything you have just said. It is going to be hard for trauma victims to speak up and when they do sometimes the inconsistency with their stories may not be because they are lying but because they are so hurt that all they can see is their pain, rightfully. It will take her to be in a better state before she could tell what happened without her having to struggle. I cannot imagine being bullied for 10 years... and especially having to suffer in silence.

Sorry to hear that you've been through a lot and I hope you are doing better now and that you will be.

[panqueque]

Instead of blaming Mina or defending Jimin, think about what FNC actually did for them.... nothing. She wants Jimin to recognize her mistakes, but that means whatever is left of her career is over. The only solution I see is Mina going to another country where she can get treatment and Jimin trying to get treatment too. All I see is a shitty company that never took responsibility of preventing this type of issues.

[Aegyo]

She needs to get off the internet, since the knetz are getting sick of her and bashing her at the moment, and get professional help..she needs treatment asap. 

From what i see ..the way Mina is seeking attention and victimizing herself to that extent is also a sign of disorder, she cannot seem to get over it on her own..i hope her family and friends are supporting her to get through this.  

[camilocorream]

On 5/1/2021 at 2:56 AM, pinkpanda_spirit said:

I honestly think she should quit sns, it won’t do her any good...

I agree with this, Jimin career is ruined. She is causing herself more harm than good. People are starting to seeing mina in a not so positive light. She should shut sns and be away from sns until she seeks help and improve her mental condition.