Some advice???(ED warning)

[Neopoli]

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I hate admitting to it but i do use kpop as fuel and compare myself to the skinniest and see their weights and get upset. i've had anorexia for about 14 years now though so i don't think its ever going away. i can't afford help in the US so I don't think a break would help and neither would leaving since it never seems to stop but even if I try to be body positive for everyone I don't feel it for myself and still compare my body to like kei and see idols who were my old size which I still wish i was it doesn't help. I'm also more sensitive to body shaming than I like ti admit

but i dont want to leave over this because i'm never gonna recover anyhow i would have to miss out on an entire genre of music i actually enjoy and other content i enjoy like x group funny moments

 

[Hopkinz]

I overcame an ED.  My advice would be to listen to loved ones when they say they are concerned.  It's really important to get your nutrients and to eat.  I know when you look in the mirror you see all the imperfections but you need to ignore them as difficult as it may seem.

[Neopoli]

17 minutes ago, Hopkinz said:

I overcame an ED.  My advice would be to listen to loved ones when they say they are concerned.  It's really important to get your nutrients and to eat.  I know when you look in the mirror you see all the imperfections but you need to ignore them as difficult as it may seem.

my family does not care

[Thatoneuser]

My advice would be to understand that they look one way and you look another, you're supposed to be you and they're the way they are. Realize that they're under strict diet and probably miserable over their weight and food too. 

I used to have an eating disorder and body dysmorphia when I first started at my job. I'm a makeup artist and I've everything from photoshoots, runway, to red carpet etc. I would be working with some of the most beautiful people I could imagine, and it struck a lot to my self confidence. It ate me up inside, especially since my job is one focused on looks. It would get to the point where I thought I was ugly even with all the makeup in the world. 

I know it's a cliche but you need to realize that it's what's inside that matters and that you as a person matters. That moment came to me when this beautiful model told me she enjoyed spending time with me over other models. I had asked her why, because the people she was around were so beautiful. She told me (and this still warms my heart) that I was present and that I was in the moment with her, and that I focused on the now and the people. That made me realize that she likes me for me and not because of how I look. I'm not going to pretend that looks don't help, they do. My job relies on them, but the best of people are the ones that look inside, yes they look on the outside, everyone does, but what matters is who you are.

People who care about what you look like care too much. You are they way you are meant to be, and even the most beautiful people have insecurities. You will get better and you can overcome this. 

[BlessMeAchoo]

I understand how you feel, I too have struggled with an ED for many years and tbh Kpop probably did help fuel it. Seeing so many skinny and pretty idols makes it hard not to compare yourself to them. It doesn't help that my height and body frame is similar to some idols so it makes it extra hard not to compare. I know it's far easier said than done, but I try not to weigh myself anymore or count calories. I also try to exercise instead of restricting. I've found that exercising and working out more often makes me feel happier. I can see that I'm not overweight even if my brain tries to tell me otherwise. I also try not to compare myself to other people anymore. I remember seeing a post saying something along the lines of 'don't compare your worst to someone else's best' and it really stuck with me. I keep telling myself why should I compare myself to someone else? They're not me and I'm not them. I'll never be someone else so why compare myself to someone else? As cheesy and cliche as it sounds, instead I just try to be the best version of me that I can be. Each person is different so I can't guarantee that it will work for you too and it's a long and difficult battle to overcome, but I wish you the best.
I believe in you, you can do it!~

[lighterxx]

I did not have ED however, one my close friends struggled alot with this. And what she did was support from loved ones (not family but friends) , healthy nutritional foods, vitamins and sport. Something you love preferably such as dance. Im sorry I can't help you much, but these are all things that helped her greatly, I hope they will help you too

[Mrs. Morale]

I understand. Before I got in kpop I was often bullied for being too small & skinny. After got in kpop I thought I was great...for awhile until I realize I wasn't as small some kpop idols so I tried to lost weight. I know am skinny but I still want to lose 2-4 inches off my waist, especially after seeing how some kpop idols waist were so tiny. My waist is 24.5 inches but I wanna to have have Momo & Tzuyu waist line (they are both 22 inches). I tried but couldn't, idk why tho. I'm kinda okay now.

I'm scared of gaining weight to point I measure myself everyday.