How Do I Tell Her?

[Homiez]

Is that my fault?

I called us friends from the start even though i already liked her because was i trying to keep my distance. I really liked her and I didnt want to screw it up by trying to sleep with her. As everyone including her well aware i dont exactly have best record when it comes to long lasting relationships.

I tried to keep her away. I thought I could be friends with her and sleep with people on the side, but the first time someone tried to kiss me after we met, I felt like throwing up, I couldnt go through with it then, and I didnt ever try again after that. I felt awful. 

Thats how I knew I was in too deep. I lived for the days I got to see her every few months. I really meant what i said when i say she makes me feel like I belong somewhere. That I've found someone i love.

2 days ago, we went on trip alone together and she makes me feel something again without me have to touch her or sleeping together cause she choose to sleep separately which i respect her in that way. How do I let her know what I feels without making her uncomfortable and do i have to wait her since it had been more than a year of our friendship and i once overnight at hers when she avoided me? We both are bisexual and we both are very open with it and i knew almost all of her old days failed relationship during the trips. She is comfortable with her backgrounds and past stories although she might hid some but to have her listening to my dark stories as well sometimes reflected me of how similar we are. Not to mention we almost similar in every of our interests, lifestyles also the way of how we think of anything is almost same although we might bicker with few different opinions but we settled it quietly in peace. Other than that we might felt in love quick if only she's not 11 years older than me. 

So what should I do?

Do I have to tell her?

How do I tell her?