from an old regular at oh

[zediby]

I have been away from this forum for at least a year, but now that I read about sulli I had to write this post somewhere.

it is not just because of I stanned her and followed her for years, even after leaving fx, that her passing away the way she did makes me incredibly fucking sad

ever since she was fifteen she has had to deal with verbal abuse coming from frustrated teens and grown ass adults both online and irl. we all saw it. the bullying was bad enough when she was in fx, but after she left it somehow got worse

I remember when she posted pictures of her on a field and people ranted her for not wearing a bra. people would imply she was abusing her cat during live streams. all the useless beef over the men she was seen with, and people calling her a whore. anything she would do, as normal as it might have been, was smh a valid reason to call her crazy. and if you're called crazy enough times maybe you start believing it. and maybe you end up like sulli.

we keep saying that we need to change and that the fandoms in kpop are toxic. all these posts sound copy pasted from when we lost jonghyun. get a grip. grow up. think before you post. but everything goes back to same old eventually. 

I'm just sorry it had to be sulli. she was just played by all these people and manipulated into believing all these things about herself which were not true. and I can relate to that on a very personal level, it's just that I never expect any of this to change. I firmly believe she did. unlike many idols she never hid her fucking personality and just did her own thing and for doing that in such a nasty industry, I'll remember and respect her forever.

 

no one choses to live. the least we can do is be fucking kind to each other.