My friend just made me sad. Please give me some advice

[EasySteezy]

Okay, so I don't really have female friends. I try my hardest because girls are delightful. But they all will say weird little backhanded compliments to me about the way I look and my "fans" (what they call the guys that ask me out.) Except for one girl that has been my bestie for about 5 years now. We do everything together, but especially clubbing. I just have a bunch of male friends  for the most part that will "give compliments" to me. I don't take them to heart though because I know they probably say that to every girl. 

 

Now before I continue this I'll say this. I'm an attractive girl, I'm not stunning. I'd say if I was an actress I'd get the roles that Emma Stone gets but DEFINITELY NOT someone like Megan Fox, know what I mean? Like I'm attractive, but I'm not like out of this world gorgeous. But my area is pretty small, so I guess that plays a huge factor in my story as well. If I was in some big city I'd probably get not that much attention. Small town 9 big city 6

 

Anyways so yesterday I call up my bestfriend to tell her about how I just got a boyfriend. She was ignoring everything I was saying, so I say, "Oh I think I caught you at a bad time I should've texted before calling." Then she harshly says, "yeah bye" and hangs up in the same breath. I texted asking why she's mad but then she sends me a long text saying how it's draining being my friend because she believes I'm more attractive and have a better body (she's obese, but my body type isn't really considered "in" right now either. I'm a fucking stick and I have had guys tell me rude shit like "You would have a perfect body if you gained 20 pounds".) But she says she feels ugly because I "get all the guys when we are out clubbing" and that she only gets attention when she goes without me and that's why when we go to the club she will just disappear and I end up panicking trying to find her. (Now just to reiterate the statement from earlier in the post I'M NOT THAT ATTRACTIVE!!!!!! JUST FROM A TOWN WITH ONLY 45,000 PEOPLE IN IT!!!) Then she said that hearing that guys I hook up with end up wanting to become exclusive with me right away or offer for me to move in makes her feel bad because the guys she hooks up with just want a one night thing and leave her on read. But I really just think it's because she fucks with the wrong sorts of guys. Nothing to do with her looks. 

I told her we don't have to go to clubs anymore.

 

But now I feel bad. All this time she felt bad hearing about my life and I'm like fuck... I can't tell her about any dating then. Only like work stuff and home stuff. I don't know what to do to make her feel better other than that. But is someone really your best friend if you can't tell them everything with no worry? What do you guys think.

 

AND ONCE AGAIN I'M NOT THAT ATTRACTIVE!!! This is not some post where I'm going on some egotistical ramblings and looking for people to stroke my ego. I'm not deluded. I know one expensive ass move to LA would make all of these problems disappear lol 

 

[Lolly21]

Hear me out.

 

Why do you have to make excuses for your "friend"? If she has self-steem issues it´s not your fault. Tell her that just because she feels insecure she doesn´t need to be a bitch to you. Jealousy is not good. AT ALL. I would say to her "then find another friend" and drop her right away. It´s 2019 and we should not be engaging in negative relationships.

 

Also, Emma Stone, for me, is gorgeous. Maybe your level of gorgeous is someone unreal? LOL.

[Bom]

Friends are people you should be able to share experiences with. Sounds like she's jealous she doesn't get the same level of attention as you.

 

As the 'ugly friend' (i'm not ugly but my friends are beautiful and i'm average af) it can be difficult always being in your friend's shadow.