Please vent here

[Yoonability]

If you're having a shitty day please vent here, maybe we can give each other some strength 

 

 

I've had depression for a while now but I've always pushed through and done my course work, gone to class (it's mandatory; no attendance means no exam means study delay) and basically done everything that was on my to-do list, but I've barely managed up until this week and last week. It feels as though things are falling apart. I can't do it anymore. All my energy feels used up. People constantly tell me to just 'push through, get over the hard part' but I want to tell them that I've been doing that for months that it feels like I just can't any longer.

 

I just cancelled a date I was supposed to have on Thursday and while she was very kind about it at first, she also asked me/sort of got angry at me for talking to her if I was going to cancel anyway. But I wasn't. I was going to push through like always and hope that this new thing, like all the new things I try, was going to give me enough energy to keep going a little longer. But I feel far too tired to do anything. How could I possibly explain that to her? I feel sorry about it.

 

I have to make dinner but it feels near impossible rn. I have nothing to look forward to for the next days of the week. I'm so, so tired. I have no energy, but I have to keep going, tomorrow too. Not going is not an option.   I feel so bad about everything. I don't know why I can't find something that gives me joy in life. If only I could meet my friends more often, I think I'd be doing okay... but alas. 

[BlessMeAchoo]

I've struggled with an eating disorder for as long as I can remember but recently I've not been doing so well. I've gained tonnes of weight over the past year and I now weigh 50kg, this is the fattest I've been in my entire life and I just feel so fat and ugly. I used to weigh 38kg literally one year ago because I was particularly struggling back then and I just wanted to die. Obviously I don't want to feel that low again and my weight plummeted at that point because I didn't care about living.Yet I can't help but want to get back to that weight again no matter how unhealthy it is. All I can think about is food and calories and it just consumes my mind. People say just eat and don't think about it but it really isn't that easy. I wish it was but it isn't. If I eat anything high calorie I have to repress the urge to either purge or fast. I haven't eaten anything for two days because I ate too many calories two days ago and I just feel like a fat pig. I can't eat without thinking about all the fat I'm going to gain even when I know I've not realistically eaten enough calories to gain weight. I have basically no friends and I rarely go out other than going to university. My life is just pathetic at the moment.

[Shut Up And Take My Money]

Honestly some people just don't understand because they haven't gone through it. Some try but sometimes they also act like it's a simple fix when it's not.

 

 

Have you tried speaking to a therapist?

[UMJI MOODS]

My grandma is very ill but the hospital wants to do hospice when she is going downhill fast.

[Hoshisus]

awww bb i feel the same way as you :( i’m just so tired all the time

[Trashie]

I have headache since yesterday and feel so sick for some reasons

 

 

hope everything be great for everyone and have great day

[rosalina & luma]

i always feel like nobody wants me. i'm a big failure. i keep trying and i keep failing.

[Bom]

Idk what's going on with my mental health this past few days, I feel hypomanic, depressed and anxious all at the same time. 

I don't feel okay at all and it's so strange not knowing what's going on with your own mind and body. I can't eat, can't sleep, I already restricted my diet lately and I don't want to lose anymore weight. It's so hard.