For people struggling with depression, this could make you feel understood.

[NINI]

 

 

This made me feel more understood and listened than all those videos about depression symptoms, all those encouraging videos about life, about getting out of the situation I am in. How terrible is this? Feeling comforted I am not the only one? I don't wish this illness to anyone, but how ugly is that I wish my loved ones could understand what I am going through? And that is the ugly part - because you can fully understand it only if you have experienced it. But I don't want them to experience it, I don't want to bring them into my darkness.

How hard is it to arrive late to some meeting because you haven't been able to sleep the past 15 hours and then you inexplicably fall into ''a coma'' right before you have to get yourself ready to go out? And they call you lazy.

How hard is it to tidy your house, your clothes? And to look messy if you don't.

No one wants to stink but it's hard to even take a shower? It's exhausting for both your mind and your heart to know you have to go and you have to do and you have to work, and clean, meet up, take a shower, fall asleep, but then wake up.

Isn't it difficult for everyone to go to sleep peacefully? They must be content with how their day went. But I'm not, so I stay awake and find (useless) things to do, filling my unfullfilling day.

I almost forgot all this when I started taking meds and apparently 'healed' but I'm back and feel worse than before.

 

The part that resonates with me the most is ''Mom says try counting sheeps but my mind can only count reasons to stay awake'' .

 

I hope you can find your sentence as well. I cannot give you one good reason to seek help, cause I forgot. I swear I knew it but my mind is hiding it from me.

So I want to tell you you are not alone. You are not the only one who feels tired, lazy, stinky, ugly, useless, not worthy, grumpy, clingy at times, insomniac, old in your mind and body, empty, sometimes too full, apathic then too sensitive again.

I know and others know too.

 

We'll find a way, I hope. I wish everyone who's going through this the best.

[Mr.Skinny-penis]

thank you OP

lately its been hard to get up in morning 

but this encourage me to stay strong even if it for one more day

[Xinon]

I really need this.

[begginforthread]

I think the key is just surrounding yourself with people that truly understand and love you, and just erase the rest that doesnt matter. I know that sounds corny and maybe obvious but its the truth, at least in my experience. My girlfriend has made all the difference in my life. Not only did we naturally click instantly, but it turned out she's a psychiatrist and I'm a nutjob, so it works. She's saved my life in more ways than one.

[NINI]

 

thank you OP

lately its been hard to get up in morning 

but this encourage me to stay strong even if it for one more day

Same. I forced myself to get up early and clean up my house... I can't say I am feeling better though. I am forcing myself.

[ByulHarangBona]

Thank you so much for this!

[NINI]

I really need this.

 

 

Same, that video made me feel better.

 

I think the key is just surrounding yourself with people that truly understand and love you, and just erase the rest that doesnt matter. I know that sounds corny and maybe obvious but its the truth, at least in my experience. My girlfriend has made all the difference in my life. Not only did we naturally click instantly, but it turned out she's a psychiatrist and I'm a nutjob, so it works. She's saved my life in more ways than one.

  

 

You are so lucky, I am happy for you, really. I have a boyfriend and he is an amazing person but he doesn't seem to understand how hard it is for me... Yesterday he told me he can't help but putting on a shield cause he can't take all this negativity - I feel horrible about this but I can't really blame him.

Also we have both been involved in an accident 6 months ago and he injuried himself, he'll have signs forever. I am fine, didn't get hurt but the shock triggered my depression (which I thought was gone forever.

 

Thank you so much for this!

Yw. Everything is going to get better. We just have to find our own key

[JihyoStoleMyHeartAYAYAY]

That help me alot. Thanks OP.

[begginforthread]

 You are so lucky, I am happy for you, really. I have a boyfriend and he is an amazing person but he doesn't seem to understand how hard it is for me... Yesterday he told me he can't help but putting on a shield cause he can't take all this negativity - I feel horrible about this but I can't really blame him.

Also we have both been involved in an accident 6 months ago and he injuried himself, he'll have signs forever. I am fine, didn't get hurt but the shock triggered my depression (which I thought was gone forever.

 

It can be rough. For a long time I avoided serious relationships and just stuck to flings and generally kept people at a distance, emotionally at least. It was easier that way. With people that suffer from depression or other mental illness.. it isnt simple being around us, and does take a form of commitment and tolerance that not everyone is down for, understandably.

 

Hope it works out for you.