The Rant Thread

[Anii]

I was reading the comments under a SOPHIE video and someone commented that she "did it for the gays."

Of course, a straight person had to butt in and ask why the person was making music all about sexuality and shit. Unsurprisingly, an argument followed this. 

It's a joke. I'm already tired of straight people asserting their straightness in real life. At least, let the gays have some harmless fun in the virtual world. 

The comment was under a freakin SOPHIE video too. What kind of comments do you expect to see lol?

[eunheart]

I hate how I'm having hard time because I'm uninspired. I know what I needed to do but I have ZERO inspiration to do make a different. This is a BIG TASK considering my works gonna be shown on TV and I'm stuck AF right now ugh. Not to mention I have SUPER limited time to finish everything.

[Anii]

Saw a tweet with 10K+ likes where some random person said that there's no reason for NCT to have that many members unless they're a circus from the 1900s or something. Unpopular opinion....but I kinda like the idea of rotational groups with many members like NCT and AKB48.

Anyway that isn't the issue. Unsurprisingly, the quote retweets were basically users taking the opportunity to make gross generalizations about K-pop. Frankly speaking, I'd rather listen to songs by large and interesting groups like NCT instead of those polluting the Billboard Hot 100 charts in the states. And I'm not even an NCTzen lmao.

[Nottasushi.]

This btch, stfu.. stop bothering me on my break fctard

[seokii]

I just said something sexual to my boyfriend and he reacted like I crossed the line or something

I'm not the type of person to open up about that stuff! now I feel gross!! I feel really gross...

: (

fuck boys

[AlwaysDreaming]

Grammys honestly are so out of touch and clearly don't know how to celebrate non-white music.

Taylor's album of the year win over Kendrick(2016), Mumford over Frank (2013) and of course Adele's win over  Beyonce's lemonade album will never sit well with me.

[Ghostly]

why can't fans just accept the fact that their favs just don't have the artistry ability to put out anything decent at all? some idols are born performers and that's absolutely okay, being able to perform as dancers/singers are talent in itself and these are things that fans can also super be proud of.

I'm just tired of the album taking a toll just because fans are simping for their idols-produced subpar song God f*cking dammit...

[Anii]

Spoiler

TW//abuse, body hatred, mental illness, homophobia

I hate my father so much. I hate you so much.

I'll never forget when my exams got over in 2018 and you treated me like absolute scum because I told you I didn't write them that well. The days following this, you put me on blast for the smallest of things. It affected me so bad. When the results came out, you suddenly showered me with love since I actually ended up doing well. So is that what I am to you? Is all my worth determined by my performance on standardized tests? Now, I can't even enjoy my free time to the fullest because I think I'm better off studying than getting some well-needed relaxation. I'm even planning to major in a field you want me to. When I was 9, you twisted my ears when I couldn't answer a math question. You twisted it more and more, and let go only when I got it right. I was a kid. I was in tears. I was in pain. Still am.

I'll never forget the times you criticized my appearance. I was fairly confident in my looks but you always took the opportunity to bring me down. You made fun of my hair and my nose. You still do. It triggers me, but I can't do anything. I cry because I'm so ugly. I was fat then and now, I'm too thin to you.  

You love playing games with me, don't you? In 2017, you told me I had an inferiority complex. In 2018, you said that I'm too selfish and that I think highly of myself. Make up your fucking mind. Whenever I'm genuinely happy or laughing out loud, you immediately barge in and remind me of my academics to make me feel low. It's so obvious. My 'friends' are busy enjoying life while I'm depressed 24x7 as this lifestyle you've forced upon me has taken a huge toll on my health.

Privacy doesn't exist in your dictionary. You always need to monitor me. Thank goodness I made you log out of all my emails. Fucking bitch.

You love comparing me to others to motivate me to study more. The 'others' refer to only a handful of people. It's always them. Why not compare me to the majority who are not as miserable as I am? 

This year, you threatened to hit me. I told you to do it. You didn't. Fucking coward.

Now, you're angry with me for not opening my room door when mom knocked. I was listening to music in full volume to forget about the miseries of the world for a while lmao. Even my mom isn't angry, so why is my dad so pissed? He thinks he's some king who deserves all the respect in the world. Give and get. Give and get.

I'll never forget when I did my SATs and the first thing you talked to me about was the SATs I was gonna write after that. Can't you let me rest? The very same day, you said I was not studying like I used to. What??

I'm bi too lmao. Coming out is gonna be an experience. I don't think I will come out to him, like, ever. He's definitely homophobic with his prehistoric mindset.

There are definitely people having it worse than me. I've seen them and I really feel for them. I really hope you all can feel happiness. Your parents' meaningless words and actions don't determine your worth. 

Now, it's not my academics that's bringing me down. Thankfully, as I'm in college, my father isn't as curious as before. I feel really bad for my younger brother now since he has to face the brunt of his wrath. I hope I can help him. He's a strong and beautiful person. Really, it's my loneliness, lack of self-love, and absence of self-worth that's hurting me inside, and outside too. I hope I can improve myself because it's killing me.

 

Edited November 29, 2020 by PurpleAnii

[deobizone]

My legs r fucking killing me since saturday. I was struggling riding my bike to work yesterday morning and i was thinking like oof getting out of shape hhh but i when i got there i was like ah its my legs which were sore at home but didn't know would slow me down at walking & riding my bike. And i thought id be fine once i get home and sleep since i spent all sat morning/ afternoon moving and had 1 hr to relax maybe before leaving for work...then i never get good sleep sat nights cuz i work sun mornings as well. Which... i just woke up amd..yea still sore. And doesnt help my sched changed for this week..usually my day off is tues but its thurs this week.  Also changed my sat shift to 5-12 instead of 430-12. Ok they got me.  For few months now ive been coming in 30 min early cuz my shift used to be at 4. But i will gladly start at 5 instead . Anyway yup monday is alwaus easier to get thru for me for this reason.  But fair enough.  Thurs is the slowest (least work)  day and tuesday is pretty busy from what ive been told. 

But with my calves burning like hell if i so mucg move my legs itll be hell.  Idk why too. I can only assume its from the moving tho. Had to help in moving a lot of heavy things down our 2nd floor apt to the truck. Thankfully most of those things were for my room (my dresser, wardrobe, and bookcase) which is on 1st floor...and my parents bookcase went in living room.

I just hope my legs stop hurting soon. I feel like im really slacking at work bc its just too painful

Edited November 30, 2020 by deobizone

[Anii]

Spoiler

I opened up about mental health to my mother. I'm scared. I hope I don't regret this. 

 

[Wannabe]

seriously hate fans who use papago or google translate and act like official translations accounts on Twitter it just complicates things so much 

[crazy_diamond]

I just came back here to re-read my old posts. History, that's all i have to say 

I kinda miss this forum

[starxlight]

I am not Into kpop now like i used to be. Every group bores me. The music is not the same, the variety show are not the same. There's so many restrictions on idols and every thing feels fake. This obsession with YouTube videos, charts and albums took the fun out everything.  Honestly who gives a fuck!

I don't follow or stop following any groups. I don't stream any videos, I don't buy any album. The only thing I do is I sometimes check the new songs or Mv's groups drop and keep it moving.

Edited December 2, 2020 by starxlight

[canis lupus]

suddenly  i remember when nct 2018 yearbook came out and people were angry and scandalized that the underage members were shirtless too

as if boys being shirtless isn't completely normal and acceptable LMAO... your fault for sexualizing young boys

[canis lupus]

not to be a boomer but i really wish y'all were around during 2nd gen, before SM invented pre-recorded live vocals/AR in kpop lmao

then you'd  know how shaky live vocals really are while dancing (bonus points if you hear their jewelry clinking lol) and see how they mostly stand still when it's their turn to sing

now that kpop choreo has elevated so much, y'all really claiming their stable vocals are live when they're literally jumping around lol

and fans who are in denial like "they just have loud MR but they're singing live" lmaooo stop deluding yourself, sad

anyway while we're here, it's sad that nowadays im just happy whenever i hear idols' mics turned on, even when the volume is so low, not caring about whether they sound good or not lol

im just happy for the effort

ok boomer rant over

[seokii]

Why the hell doesn't Youtube have a manual keyword blacklist filter

Why does it not give me the option to type a word in, and have Youtube be like "ok we won't show you any videos with this word in the title in your video suggestions"

Why does it only give me the option to say I'm not interested in individual videos!!! Why do I have to do that for EVERY goddamn jeffree starr related video in my recommendeds. Some of the videos are from people I like to watch so I don't want to tell the algorithm to stop showing me their videos.

 

Stupid. Literally so stupid. How could it possibly NOT benefit Youtube to have a way for users to manually help its algorithm?!? Oh

Wait

I just realized

It's because they know people will get smart and search-filter types of videos they know will be monetized...

Ah I've just had a moment of clarity

The "black box" nature of trying to curate your youtube algorithm probably lets Youtube disguise the fact that they push monetized videos over any other kind of content. Disabling search terms would be make it too obvious to the consumer...

I see

[sasha]

when will Jimin fucking loose those contact lenses. no eye colour is worth floating pupils, it's hauntingly ugly.

if BTS's end of year performances will loose a tad of their theatrics it would be great too.

[dBKaleidoscope]

I'm not even mainly his fan but Taemin album reached is much more mature artistry and creativity wise than many of his peers and deserves all the awards out there.

[Nelkoya]

I'm so tired of my neighborhood. It's not healthy to be scared at every noise cause it might be yet another car burning, and it might be mine. I'm tired of hearing fireworks and firecrackers every night. I'm tired of hearing the police and firetrucks sirens. This neighborhood has never been the best, but it fucking went downhill this year. I'm so anxious about everything. I'm only 23 but I've drove cars away from a fire already 3 times!!! And it doesn't help that I'm fucking terrified of fire since we got that big fire in the basement right under my bedroom when I was a kid. Every time I smell that burning scent I start panicking, and those fucking firecrackers aren't helping!!!

I truly can't wait to move out. I truly hope I'll find a place where I can feel safe at home, cause it's been year that I haven't been feeling safe here.

[Wdojcdid8]

SEVENTEEN DESERVED BEST DANCE PERFORMANCE but oh well

[Wdojcdid8]

"You should've voted harder" CTFUUUU YALL KNOW NO ONE WOULD WIN AGAINST YOU IN VOTING JUST LET PEOPLE COMPLAIN FFS

[deobizone]

Ok im bitching all the time ab mundane stuff my fam annoy me with .. and i will continue to...but real talk its insane how toxic and ill my paremts are and for some reason decided to spawn FOUR people and raise them poorly/be shitty ppl to fuck them up as well.

Like my sister was over ytd and ytd there was also some guy over installing security sht round the house and around 430 i left my room getting ready to leave for work..my parents were leaving somewhere too and giving my sister a ride but my mom and sister started arguing bc my mom left something important outside and bickered ab it. My sister was saying things like ill never come over & ruin ur perfect family again etc like my mom hates her.  Its a dilemma for me.  I used to hate my sister but also pity her bc she beat me up p much every day til i was 14-15. But that was prolly bc my dad (often egged by my mom to do so) beat my sister.  Which fuck me ok a kid hurting another will scar them..im a testement to that, but youve got to be a sick cunt bastard asshole every word in the book to constantly BEAT your up until 16 y/o diabetic daughter when ur in ur 40s esp. And when i was 15 or 16 and my sister was in hospital or group home for like 3 yrs. I found out early on - when i was walking home from therapist office with my mom,  classic, she tells me my sister is there bc she tried OD on insulin like 3 times & has bpd and prolly npd. And was like yea that explains why she was always a pain to you.  Um ?? No , it tracks back to ur abusive husband. Which bts just last week my dad was joking with my sister ab abusing her and it boggles how they can joke like that considerinv the past.

They make me feel like a fucking crazy person & only person that hasn't forgiven him.  I can't.  But yea the way my mom talks ik how my sis got upset. Like she just whines and bitches 24/7 like she just needs to shut up sometimes. And its kindA abusive how she words things.  Won't just own up to shit & be respinsible but eggs other people on. I just ignore,  my dad has silemt rage.  But my sister is only ones who speaks up on it that'll make my mom be like ok no i was just saying i left it out there...

They'll prolly make up cuz this has happened before but idg how my mom & sister has good relationship cuz we used to live in az but my dad would spend alk their money at casinos on pay day so we had to move and my mom would tell ppl ask why we came back is bc the health insurance is better there.  So basically blamed on my sis diabetes. I didn't even find out this wasnt the reason why til years la ter overhearing them argue ab it (i was also told that reason why we moved)  like that is grounds for never speaking again imo.

I used to hate my sister but she was really nice helping me move and set up my room so yea... it upset me yesterday seeing her cry. It upset me more realizing ytd "wow every one in my family are cunts" like i alr said my sister... i have avpd,depression,ocd as the big 3 (daily struggle) and occasional visits of panic disorder & ptsd. My brother has aspergers & anger issues. Honestly ngl id say we all have anger issues but least so me and my other sister. My sister actually is 1st born of the 4 if us and didn't move w ys to az, was grown up and out with friends when we were inside being abused...so sge got out without ant Mental Illnesses. Ok im prolly being to kind to myself ..i have an irritability issue but im not type to lash out on ppl like my family is. But like ? I can't make sense of this.  Its painful. Like ive messed up and have flaws that if i redo i could of worked on. But overall mental stability, was doomed from birth cuz my family is just shitty. That hurts to think ab. Its a neutral feeling to think "wow were all cunts" but after typing it out and thinking deep ab it. Its kinda making my cry.  Why is my life like this?  Its fked.  Feels pointless and surely doesnt help my depression and..ideation ive struggled with my whole life but I've had less these days..ig it isn't going away but takes vacation sometimes. Also i have to be honest.. my ptsd is linked to my abuse ofc.. also have some car/outside/road ptsd and imagine myself dying alot since i was hit by a car last yr. But it also is of witnessing abuse. Like i dunno if my brother was old enough to really rmr or recognize how fked it is when my dad would chase my sis to her room and her crying and screaming for help or to stop is audible. And i more rmr the times in az where vwe had our own rooms but before then i shared w her so i also saw it too. Then when my dad got arrested for beating my mom after a casino situation. I didn't see it but i was in the loft where i heard it from downstairs happening bc the rooms only seperated by stairs. But siblings don't get itbthe same bc it was in az, my sister was at her friends & my brother on other side of upstairs in his room.  Like ptsd from abuse is one thing.. but i never thought how fked the ptsd is of before..witnessing ur "loved ones" abused as like a 14& younger y/o.. on a regular basis. Like i knew hearing or seeing these things fked me up but realizing there's some my ptsd attached to that.  Fucked. But i have ptsd from like so many things honestly now thanks to that car. I alr had intrusive thoughts ab dying whenever i go outside but now its even worse. Yea im fucked up. I have ptsd from both being abused and witnessing it. Wtf. My life is fucked

P.s. mini rant cuz i was annoyed earlier.It snowed ytd& I worked 5pm-1am followed by 9am-2pm (i left hr early i am sched to 3 and even stay longer sometimes)  and go on back patio and is covered in ice abd spent like over half hr maybe even an hr getting rid of it. God. And my dads laxy ass just spend last 2 days on computer all day & night.  I spend it..from the time it snowed to cleaning the ice...work>sleep>work>clean it. God lazy asshole. And he kept thanking me like i don't give a fk. Ignore. Do if urself next time instead of tiring me out.

Also a hr or so ago i just heard him  swearinv bc i think my mom left some box or containers or couch (just us 2 at home rn...fml) like "fucking brand new couch" god shut up. Theres this bar area next to the living room he made his computer room which annoys me he is bitching ab mess when there's this like window area between the room & living room that i thought would be cool to get spinny chairs to put there but he just cluttered the floor and counter with his shit. Like youve got a whole room. Put it there.  Then don't bitch ab a fking container left on the couch. What an asshole

[shooter]

how on earth do dumbasses on twitter still fall for troll account bait? they'll reply "flops" or "tanked" under every chart tweet and people swarm them with fancams or start fanwars over it. it's really not that hard to draw conclusions when you see they got 0 likes on an account with like 20 followers created 2 weeks ago and most of their tweets are insults. at this point i'm pretty sure everyone just pretends they don't realize it's a troll account so they have an excuse to drag the group in their profile picture. this shit is getting so old, some people desperately need to get a hobby outside of kpop

[LoonAespa]

I wish I get hit by a truck and d-word.

 I'm tired of feeling anxious and stressed 24/7, this semester had been fucking hellish, I have 0 motivation to do anything, I'm exhausted physically and mentally, my back hurts, I keep getting eyesore. there is nothing that brings me happiness or make me smile , I've been feeling so fucking lost and empty the last 4 weeks and the only person I ever had feelings for is not a part of my life anymore, I've been missing them so much I can't stop thinking about them and worrying about their safety,  I can't even contact them anymore or be there for them since we live 2000 miles away.

 

[seokii]

News article about kpop idol unfortunately catching covid: exists

Armies: is this an opportunity to flex my hate boner for other idols?