freya 7,202 Posted August 14, 2016 Share Posted August 14, 2016 (edited) I hate my major but can't change it to what i want to do because it's not as lucrative according to my parents. Yeah I probably won't make as much money but it's not like my current path will make me rich either. And it'll require an honours year plus a masters program which is competitive as hell to actually enter the field. I just don't see myself putting all that effort into something I dislike. Ugh. Edited August 14, 2016 by FineDayToday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted October 23, 2016 Share Posted October 23, 2016 I love how BTS gets all these phakes and other boy group fandoms so riled up that they're all they can talk about nowadays. Makes me so happy after all the downplaying from this past year and half. "BTS will never this and never that. they aren't a trend. They'll never last etc". But guess what, they're out here killing it and i couldn't be more proud. Literally anything BTS or this fandom does gets everyone triggered and it's beyond hilarious at this point when most of it is very "pots and kettles" of them. Oh and It's funny to me how people i thought were cool and mature "fans" started showing their ass ever since BTS started doing really well. I guess sales can do that to you. It's a true shame. 5 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted November 10, 2016 Share Posted November 10, 2016 (edited) You know who I dislike. Really really dislike. It used to be mildly annoying but now it's on overdrive. The supposed multi-fandom people who stan 2-3 popular boy groups at the same time. Honestly, this isn't about multi-fandom people in general. It's a very specific group of people who are increasing in numbers at a rapid pace. My issue is with the ones that clearly are biased towards an ult and pretend like they're not. Like "Exo" or "Got7" or whoever aren't their ult and they give way more shits about them than any of the other groups they "stan". Some even use that multi-fandom status in arguments like "I'm an Army too but *insert biased bullshit*" The nerve. Just be honest. You like BTS and their music. That's great. But if you're going to turn on them and the fandom every time a fanwar erupts with your biased ass, if you're going ignore it when the fandom goes through something, then I'd rather you just stop pretending you're equally a fan of both. You're not. You have an ult that you care about more so stop using your "army" status as leverage in an argument. It's not cute. Edited November 10, 2016 by FineDayToday 9 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted November 15, 2016 Share Posted November 15, 2016 (edited) Some days it just gets harder trying to pretend everything is fine. I know the only way is to keep going but I'm tired. I'm tired and I'm scared and I don't think I can keep going. I hate this. Edited November 15, 2016 by FineDayToday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted November 30, 2017 Share Posted November 30, 2017 I didn't realise collarbones were so fucking offensive. When will it stop? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 3, 2017 Share Posted December 3, 2017 Am I nothing without it? Am I nothing? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 4, 2017 Share Posted December 4, 2017 Actual garbage the lot of them. Wish theyd actually buggered off instead of playing victim. No one would miss them. 4 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 6, 2017 Share Posted December 6, 2017 (edited) Why do the white people in my degree look at me weirdly? Yeah my accent is a bit of a hybrid but Im a perfectly capable person and Im doing an arts degree for goodness sake. I can converse with you intellectually in these group projects just like anyone else- stop leaving me out and ignoring me when I contribute. The looks i got when i introduced myself today made me want to shy away and the obvious exclusion when addressing the group- not even looking my way. I said nothing as a result and now Im outside the class like an idiot bc I cant face the class to say my bit. Honestly, screw this. No. 1 reason why i wanted to study in the city was the diversity and now Im stuck here. Edited December 6, 2017 by FineDayToday 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 9, 2017 Share Posted December 9, 2017 (edited) Some people just have bitterness embedded in their mind, even when it comes to what they love, that they've got to dish out that negativity even if its just a nice fluffy post I wanted to gush over. Talk about narrating in your own head to that extent. Talk about me avoiding where I've seen you and your friends post in even though I really don't want to avoid those places because I love what you love too. Edited December 9, 2017 by FineDayToday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 10, 2017 Share Posted December 10, 2017 (edited) They're still trash. Still gross. Still hypocrites. Will still cry over nothing and then come for us. Yeah. I'm not going to hold back anymore. Edited December 10, 2017 by FineDayToday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 10, 2017 Share Posted December 10, 2017 (edited) I need to let go I guess. I'm just not like the others; I must push them away enough to be a nuisance and easily forgotten. Its really all on me. Cutting off completely can't be worse than what I've already done can it? Are we friends? I don't know. I don't even know what it means to be friends anymore. I need to get out of this bubble and the first step is to not to rely on them when I get in my head feeling like an extra. I dont think anyone but me knows how much I relied on them. I wish I'd thanked them before making the decision but if I go back I'll lose my resolve. I need to get out of this rut, get my career in motion, reconnect with the old friends I'd stopped talking to because of my dumbassery. I spent a long time with them and no matter what excuse I can come up with, it wasn't fair to them. I cant believe I missed his birthday. He even invited me despite me avoiding them for years at this point. He's always been a saint. I don't hope to get accepted right away. I just want to explain. I can't keep pretending Im not in this small town with you all. I'm so sorry. Edited December 10, 2017 by FineDayToday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 12, 2017 Share Posted December 12, 2017 (edited) Why is everything always a mess? What the fuck? I want to scream. Edited December 12, 2017 by FineDayToday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 14, 2017 Share Posted December 14, 2017 Oh that place and the people who populate it are still trash btw. No matter all the pseudo explanations, you, your faux arguments and internet points mongering circlejerk are trashy. You know it too hehehehe 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 16, 2017 Share Posted December 16, 2017 Yeah...still awful...still can't mind their own business. Hope they watch them fall from that inflated spot near the top and get reminded of all the time they spent on someone else... all the time spent caring about nothing but accolades as well. Hope it stings 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 16, 2017 Share Posted December 16, 2017 If I see another badge thread... [2] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 17, 2017 Share Posted December 17, 2017 I don't really understand what this is...but I'm here in this crowded room and all I want to do is sleep or withdraw into myself. Its like my mind has shut off? Im done but I was done within the 1st hour of being here. Even people who should know what this is, don't really get what Im saying. Its like a cloud in my head and I feel so restless. I wanna go homeeeeee. I have work due tomorrow anyway. Why was it necessary for me to be here? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 18, 2017 Share Posted December 18, 2017 The world fucking sucks and whats the damn point? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 21, 2017 Share Posted December 21, 2017 (edited) I hate feeling jealous. It's such a draining emotion and just feeds into my fears and anxieties. What's worse is that I know it's not baseless but I don't react like I should. Just brushing it off and seeing it for what it is what I should do but, the overthinking, self-denigrating part of myself goes into hyper drive. Am I not interesting enough? Am I not fun enough? Am I not worth keeping around? Am I just second fiddle to you? Do you pity me? The fucking escalation of it all. People are so hard to figure out. I wish I was bubbly and bright and not the dark mess I've been for years now. I don't know if I have a sense of humour at this point. Edited December 21, 2017 by freya 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 26, 2017 Share Posted December 26, 2017 I'm slipping again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 29, 2017 Share Posted December 29, 2017 (edited) Ok but how can the setlist sheet be fake? Its literally everything in the right order with all the stage settings leaked on twitter hours before the show.And its all exactly how the show played out. ... I don't know what else to say. Like everything else besides, I don't understand how this is logically a legitimate claim. Edited December 29, 2017 by freya 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 30, 2017 Share Posted December 30, 2017 (edited) To be frank if you see it that way, you're the insecure one, the one who has to prove it so damn badly because the other is not what you want them to be, they are not the same level. You can't bring them down so you turn blind and pretend for your own, bringing them up. Pretend you are the victim... pretend you did not start this. Pretend for the moment that this is the result of people with an agenda and not the facts right before your eyes. Literally right there. Keep at it I guess. Heh Edited December 30, 2017 by freya 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 31, 2017 Share Posted December 31, 2017 Sometimes I think I forget and then it hits me again. When I wake up in the mornings, when a song comes up on an old playlist. I haven't been this affected since my grandmother. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted December 31, 2017 Share Posted December 31, 2017 (edited) I'm sorry I can't make this house sound proof, kid. You're gonna learn to live with the sounds of footsteps someday I guess I'm sorry Edited December 31, 2017 by freya Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted January 1, 2018 Share Posted January 1, 2018 I'm so bored... is this what normal life is like? Just fill it up with enough drivel to keep yourself satisfied, and feel fullfilled...or to make ends meet? I don't know what to do with myself, I can't relax. I feel like I'm wasting time but how to make it worthwhile? How do I work towards my goals when my university is going to be dormant for another 2 months? I'd be a whole lot more productive, self satisfied and be able to manage my time better if I could get employment in this town instead to having to travel 2 hours into the city for a Barista job... like ??? I knew I was shortlisted for one before someone's friend got hired instead too. Ugh. University is all about networking. I know people with not the best grades get lucrative teaching assistant jobs because of their repoire and involvement in university activities. It just drains me but I have to push myself. I need the edge when I'm an arts student and we're constantly looked down on as a waste to the job market. Not like our arts facilities bring in so much affluence in the scholarly world but whatever. I need to prove myself but I don't even know if I'm good enough. I need a mentor. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
freya 7,202 Posted January 2, 2018 Share Posted January 2, 2018 (edited) you're amazing, and this is very concise. Oh! Ah Thank you. This was the last thing I expected when I checked my notifs. Edited January 2, 2018 by freya Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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