mukka_chan 269 Posted June 2, 2018 Share Posted June 2, 2018 just wanted to let it all out with you first of all, i've been feeling like this since everytime Finally I'm finishing school next week, but when I entered on elementary school, I struggled to make friends and insert me on another people circles. At age of 11 I suffered bullyng but it stopped after 2, 3 years... despiste of being a shrotly period, bullyng developed more social anxiety on me, which made me can't trust nobody! when I'm in public or in a strange environment it's so uncomfortable to me.. i have the feeling that everyone's who are looking to me, are thinking bad things and judging me (I know it isn't the true, but can't overcome this issue) Right now, I have more friends, they aren't much and i don't have a bestie or someone who share the same likes/interests who I can talk about everything I'm so out of this world Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cobalt 2,914 Posted June 2, 2018 Share Posted June 2, 2018 The combination of being an ethnic minority and a lesbian (and having never heard of people of my ethnicity being gay ever) made me feel very alienated from everyone for a good while. I'm better now since it's been years since I came out to myself, and I've been able to compensate that loneliness with online and rl friendships with other LGBT people. And I've heard of LGBT people of my ethnicity which also helped. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Posted June 2, 2018 Share Posted June 2, 2018 I always talk to myself as if I'm talking to another person, even in public. I guess I got too anti-social and too used to my own company that it just comes naturally. I find comfort in doing so. I don't have many friends myself, because I used to be too soft and let people enter my personal space, but I got bullied for it because I was seen as a weak target. I'm generally cold to most people and I know people purposefully ignore me. I lie a lot to get myself out of situations I'd rather not be in. I have really bad social-anxiety and answering a question in class makes me burst out in tears and I find it hard talking to people because of this. People always talk behind my back about how quiet I am and how pathetic it is. I'm incredibly loud with my friends and I'm incredibly confident outside of class. I'm considered a weird person at school and not many people hang around me. Sometimes, I believe I truly was meant to live on another planet or that maybe I was from someplace else outside the current galaxy that we thrive in. I'm different, I'm odd, whatever you'd call it, and I love it. Be proud of yourself and love yourself for who you are! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ulmicola 1,981 Posted June 2, 2018 Share Posted June 2, 2018 I've felt like an alien since I was born, more or less. It's a combination of me feeling alienated (heh) from the "culture" most guys of my generation in my country share (hardcore fuckboyism plus far too much over the top extroversion) and literal autism. I doubt I will ever feel like a part of the human race. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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