Messages to Your Self

[minniemoo]

Please just do it. You can't live life this way and it won't be any less scarier if you keep postponing it

[CrazyX]

You can do it,You can lose these 15kg before end of the year,YOU CAN DO IT.

[heart clue]

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you can do in an encouraging and uplifting way but also girl it's time to get your shit together

[Lee]

They're not your friends — never were, never have been, and most probably never will be.

[Thatoneuser]

At least you know you're loyal lol

[eunheart]

why is it so hard to let go of thing that you hold and care so dearly, even when it's becoming pretty much meaningless by now.. it's no longer something that's worth the trouble, and yet you're still had it with you. 

[eunheart]

you seriously need to stop thinking about it. it's time for you to let it go. you don't share the same string of attachments, values, and feelings about it anymore, and it'll never be completed without 'that' significant other. you know that person didn't even look at you anymore. you only dealing this by you, yourself. you and you only. just stop. 

Edited November 2, 2022 by eunheart

[Thatoneuser]

lol I do it to myself

[love]

good GOD woman you do not need to be mysterious or quiet or cool to be desirable…quit feeling like everyone’s going to leave once you are known 

[Lee]

Think about it: Could it really be that important? 'Cause it's probably not.

[heart clue]

stop procrastinating

[Lee]

Don't worry about others, take care of your needs first.

[Zack Morris]

stop caring, seriously 

[Seja]

She imagines him imagining her..

 

[love]

idk why you’re still thinking about this man so much when it’s one dealbreaker after another…

[Lee]

Don't let them steal your joy

[Guest]

good things will happen, you just have to keep moving forward and trust they'll come

[love]

learn some self-control

[in good taste]

i miss my boyfriend everyday. i wish i was with him snowboarding. i hate long distance. i pray for good things to happen soon. 

also-- i feel like im outgrowing my friends from university. i was a different person then and i don't know how to meet them now, as the current me. the last time my closest "friend" felt like an actual friend was in 2020. since then i've been feeling like i'm giving more to the friendship than receiving anything.. 

 

[xiaothink]

don't get sad, get even

[love]

find someone for whom you’re their first choice

[Guest]

you're still young and you'll eventually be able to do what you want to do. just trust the process, even if your art isn't for everyone, it'll appeal to someone still.

[Guest]

you have done this before and you can accomplish this again. just another week and you get a holiday. don't give up, you're really strong.

[deobizone]

yk its so fked bc i been manifesting for ages that i meet a girl or idk could be a girl i alr know. and ..liking me. one of my coworkers has a crush on me ive been told by several ppl. and i wish i could front and act like im desirable to someone but nah. bruh its a 49 year old man. and im a 26 year old lesbian!! even tho i cant stand the coworker he was asking for advice on asking me out bcuz well tbh most ppl dont like ha lets be frank. she is a B. anw she told him im too young thank god. and i am freaked out and uncomfortable tbqh. and he's only supposed to be like janitor but he is obsessed w coming outside (tbh am so uneasy knowing he wanted to ask me out and was talked out of it..i really dont want him outside at all but cant keep him away)and helping us load trucks. i like it in a way so i can pass off unloading thm to him bc i usually have to, bc none of us wanna do it. but this last week he been trying to help load them as well. and like ok if its a day we have 2 or 3 ppl only. but we have 5 ppl out here already. it is too crowded that i just dont wanna be there. and esp after ppl told me he likes me? tbf, i dont really think so. he was just dumped recently by a girl he wasnt even with i- , like she was dating another guy but he was obsessed w ha and she just let him be until being fed up recently. so just wanting someone new to give that energy too..but this girlie was in ha 40s as well...can we not project onto the 26 yr old gay girlie please.

also is apparently only cuz i'm nice to him? my flaw...im too nice ig  nah im not even tho...okay lowkey tho ig, yeah..not to stroke my own ego..but id say i am nice person.

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like tbh i am not angel but i am trying to be helpful as possible esp in work and etc. like i carry a lot of burdens just to be helpful and carrying lots of weight when other slack to my mental and physical anguish..its not good. i amworking on it.! not like i am an angel tho... like i can be the catty and petty bch u hate but ..honestly is deserved if i am. but in general id say, yeah am trying to be careful and nice, helping person? god could that attraxct gay girlies my age, not creep het men near twice my age. no but fr my emotions really erratic like that. like i am that too nice person, but also a btch on the low hhh. example like the fall down of my relationship w my x ive been crying over for years. perfect, loml, happy then she does 1 thing that offended me and its done. never say hate ha tho but i was jaded ig. and when calm down from it.. i am too feeling guilty to fix it tho ever since then i do think feelings still mutual? call my crazy but i do fr think this still. but yeah to not be mopey like everytme i will say.. i am trying to let that go. its hard, because i say me recently, am in years, reaching that point where i can be open on a new girl. i tried for years and had small moments where okay im getting over it(mostly projecting anger, but i am never really mad at ha so doesnt last), but i fall back. im furthest on the bridge recently. but i dont know, even tho im so guilty of how i made her feel and that is the one thing, the (1) thing , singular only thing...like itshard to forgive myself knowing how bad i made ha feel. i dont know i ever can live that down. regardless, i cant explain how hard it is to close that door. im mostly being extra..joking.. manifesting a girl in my life cuz it wouldnt be right just yet. i just need more time, like holding out that hope and the door open. idk for how long. but it just is my current growth. i just have to keep being strong and whatever the future holds. thats it. its just currently hard to get over that, how im pretty sure feelings for both still there, but im still regretful. tho i just had sudden thot, if she had feeling too, maybe she'd do sumn. ugh, that hurts. but maybe that thot can push me a lil further on the bridge. but really tho in our, feels like lifetime of knowing eachother, we had other cold war period where i thought feeligs still there even tho no movements, and she told me after it was always there. omg. yeah like this...my mind way too erratic. but im trying. just focusing on trying to improve my self than wanting to just date again, thats whats moving me forward. but for now, door still open as i repeat. manifesting meeting a girl, but also manifesting re-meeting a girl if u know what i mean. i will just still trying to be best i can.. but maybe somewhere along the way i can become either 100% open again, or third time the charm. and if i am able to move past it again, i hope she has too. bc i always want the best for her(even if im completelty misreading it and she hates me hhh), and so cliche but ig i dont feel good enough thats the thing. and in the 26 long years ive had, still the most important person to me, and who i've loved the most. i hope we both have thatagain some day with whoever it is. and it last.

i am so cringe so sorry to anyoen who reads that

 

[Nelkoya]

Am I not meant to be happy?