Messages to Your Self

[Yuri]

Stop thinking these thoughts. You're only slowly destroying your mind by letting it think so negatively. Not only that, but your behaviour is already starting to affect your friends' opinions of you. I know it's had to get yourself out of the darkness when you're already so deep, but you need to start making the effort.

[Yuri]

What has gotten into you? Where's the confident girl that used to know what to do? Where's the outgoing girl that knew exactly what to say? Who is this shell of a person I don't recognise? Wake up. You're embarrassing yourself.

[Yuri]

Really wish I could stop thinking about people and situations that just put me in a bad mood for the rest of the night.

[Yuri]

Stop over-expecting of others, they will always let you down.

Stop wasting time talking to assholes that just say shit that you wanna hear yet they don't even mean any of it.

 

I gotta get better at reading people tbh. So done feeling like this.

[Yuri]

need to swallow my pride, be the bigger person and just apologise tbh.......it’s so hard tho when I wasn’t even in the wrong smh

but I miss having my girls around to talk to ._. everythings been so hard lately, the guys are cool but just don’t understand any of this stuff

[Yuri]

ugh

to be a shitty person or not?

 

should be an easy decision to make but it kinda isn't. just for once I wanna be completely selfish and think about myself but to drag someone else's feelings into it makes me horrible, a bitch, I know that. but it's tempting bc I know exactly how this is gonna end. decisions, decisions...

[Yuri]

I really need to stop projecting everything into one person, therefore unknowingly giving them the strings to control my life and emotions

[Yuri]

It’s hard right now, but everything will be over in a month

Gotta try and keep my energy high until then, so things don’t get bad again

[Yuri]

All these recent knockbacks are really starting to fuck me up. Every part of my life is leading to a dead end. In the past, that would only spur me on but idk....feel more lost than I've ever felt before. Being honest is doing nothing for me, but I feel it's important to get it out there. It's sad that in 2019 such a stigma still exists tho.

[Yuri]

It’s only been a month and I’m already struggling and looking for an escape route. 

I’m just a fucking loser.