I'd decided in highschool that I wanted to go into the navy and eventually become apart of the CPD, but after visiting a highschool in Chicago today and seeing their reactions to cops, I'm kind of rethinking my choice. Clearly there's a broken bridge between cops and black teens and I'd previously vowed to make that change, but there's so much distrust that I don't even think it's worth it.
I tend to overthink a lot too, so while I was there listening to other students' concerns, I thought back to Kalief Browder and all the things NYPD and the CJS had done to him. Questions arose in my mind like "Were these cops forced to do this? If I saw one of my fellow coworkers clearly abusing a potential suspect or an innocent person in general, would I be a bystander?"
After all my physical training and mental training, as well as reaching out to many schools and police departments, is this something I should really give up on or should I at least try to be that change?