ChungJoJo 31 Posted July 16, 2017 Share Posted July 16, 2017 Years ago i was into anime, and i enjoyed it, and liked it very much, but i was bullied for it, they told me i was a loser, etc. At first it didn't bother me, until i lost interest in anime, i thought to myself, well whats the next best thing, and it was Kpop, so i got back into Kpop, then as a little time went by, i stopped being attracted to other girls that weren't Asian, then i was/and now am only attracted to K-girls <3. But now people keep saying i like Plastic Dolls (they refer Korean girls as plastic dolls). So the best course of action for me is suicide. I mean really i can't be accepted for anything i do, I'm always an outcast. So many years, and the only thing i can think of is suicide, every second of everyday, with the constant hollow feeling of emptiness, and there's no one there for me, the people who "care" simple shove my problems away. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
King Jaejoong 1,701 Posted July 16, 2017 Share Posted July 16, 2017 How about you stop caring about what other people think of you...? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunter 5,178 Posted July 16, 2017 Share Posted July 16, 2017 Hi there, If you're really feeling that way, is there a way you can contact a crisis hotline or a helpline? OH isn't really the place for this, but we're here to listen. Hopefully you don't resort to that and feel better about yourself. There's plenty of people here who I'm sure, feels the same way as you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
✧ Quinchana ✧ 1,176 Posted July 16, 2017 Share Posted July 16, 2017 Idk how i should direct you to this thread nicely...but I think some people here could help you^^ Please don't kill yourself OP! People love you and care about you please never forget that also maybe talk to a professional about it or look for friends who share similar interests with you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChungJoJo 31 Posted July 17, 2017 Author Share Posted July 17, 2017 How about you stop caring about what other people think of...? How can i if i don't know how to life for myself, I'm the perfect tool, i do peoples bidding and i never question it. That's all i am to people, a simple tool. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BakedOrbit 789 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 don't give a fuck ... i guess you're really young , the older you are the less fucks you give. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
King Jaejoong 1,701 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 How can i if i don't know how to life for myself, I'm the perfect tool, i do peoples bidding and i never question it. That's all i am to people, a simple tool. Well, the fact that there are hundreds of users on this forum means you're not alone in this world who have such interests , you just happened to be around toxic people that don't respect your individuality , you shouldn't feel guilty for being different. The joke is on them . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChungJoJo 31 Posted July 17, 2017 Author Share Posted July 17, 2017 don't give a fuck ... i guess you're really young , the older you are the less fucks you give. do grades count, cuz im a complete failure. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
missa 7,410 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 How can i if i don't know how to life for myself, I'm the perfect tool, i do peoples bidding and i never question it. That's all i am to people, a simple tool. no u aren't . no one is a tool , we're all humans that deserve to be loved and appreciated and if u feel like no one loves u and care about u ( i doubt it tho ! everyone has someone that care for them even if u feel like they dont !) then learn how to love yourself . trust me , that's the only thing that kept me going in a certain period of time Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sammy Lee 2,635 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 These things don't seem that important to me, It's just K-pop and Anime, and if you're being bullied for such things then those people you hang out with are pretty fucked up and you need to drop them asap. I think you should get some help, and stop caring about others opinions, Especially when it comes to your hobbies and your identity, Find friends with similar interests and live your life the best way you can, Also remember that suicide is never and will never be the answer. As for the assholes 'spit on their faces if they dare bullying you again' (you can skip the last one lmao) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jendeugie 149 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 I was bullied bc I like K-Pop... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChungJoJo 31 Posted July 17, 2017 Author Share Posted July 17, 2017 no u aren't . no one is a tool , we're all humans that deserve to be loved and appreciated and if u feel like no one loves u and care about u ( i doubt it tho ! everyone has someone that care for them even if u feel like they dont !) then learn how to love yourself . trust me , that's the only thing that kept me going in a certain period of time How do i love myself? i could never grasp that concept. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChungJoJo 31 Posted July 17, 2017 Author Share Posted July 17, 2017 These things don't seem that important to me, It's just K-pop and Anime, and if you're being bullied for such things then those people you hang out with are pretty fucked up and you need to drop them asap. I think you should get some help, and stop caring about others opinions, Especially when it comes to your hobbies and your identity, Find friends with similar interests and live your life the best way you can, Also remember that suicide is never and will never be the answer. As for the assholes 'spit on their faces if they dare bully you can again' (you can skip the last one lmao) Well i mean, the only thing i have going for me is, to kill myself, or become a sadistic, blood craving maniac. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
gibi 4,504 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 I really understand how you feel, what it is like to be treated badly because I had different interests from anyone else... I always tried to fit in and do what everyone else told me to do... But that always made me even sadder... So, OP, I might not know you but I know how strong someone's opinion can affect us, but please, think about what makes you happy. Does kpop makes you smile? Did anime? Don't think about anyone else, think about how you feel. These people that are treating you badly and even bullying you, they are not superior to you. You are a person too, like them, and they have no right to make you feel bad about you doing what you like. You deserve to be happy. So please... Suicide is not the answer. You want the pain to stop... But that's not the way. The right way is building yourself, is getting stronger, is becoming someone you will be proud of. When you are happy with yourself, no one else's opinion matter. Focus on that, alright? Like I said, I don't know you or fully what you going through, but I truly hope things get better. And they will, ok? Hold on to that. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
King Jaejoong 1,701 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 You're only seeing the tip of the iceberg, you see people who come out strong and confident to bring you down and shit on your taste but in reality they hide a big complex underneath that layer of confidence , they try to satisfy their own ego and feel better about themselves by laughing at your taste and act superior, but you're not used to do that and you think you're less of a human being because of that, but you're not, you're having some different issues than the ones they have that's all, the only difference is the way you react to your inner struggles, you resort to self loath and they resort to bullying you. That's why you should at least try to accept yourself not necessarily love yourself, we all have our ugly secrets and bad side that we hate but this is what makes us humans. The fact that not all people open up about their issues it doesn't mean they're non-existent and that you're the only one struggling . It's just human nature that differs from one person to another but we're all in the same boat as you. Also you should know people have different kinds of intelligence , the fact that your grades aren't good doesn't automatically mean there's something wrong with you. If you want to be accepted, be different, people are naturally intrigued to what they don't understand, all successful people have been ridiculized at first because people fear change and as I said they're too complexed themselves to accept someone who goes against their rules, they can't handle it so they bully . But when you keep defying them they'll start to wonder about the thing that makes you reject their judgement and bit by bit they'll start admiring you because they failed where you succeeded, they chose to fit in instead of enjoying what they really love but you nourished your mind with topics and subjects you actually like . At the end, ask yourself, would these people feel happy for you one day if you ever achieve something? They won't, they only wish you failure, because if they cared for you they'd have helped you without making you feel so bad about yourself, since they dislike you that way, why let them measure your worth like that ? They don't deserve the privilege. Sorry for the long essay Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ByulHarangBona 35,161 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 Suicide is not the answer. Ignore them. Live life for yourself instead of living your life for others. You are a nice Xiyeon stan and I always appreciate it whenever you visit her thread or Pristin thread. If you need anyone to talk to, I will be here. Feel free to PM me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Enki91 91 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 Yeah, you like something that they don't, so what? Just do your thing and don't let those people bring you down, otherwise it will just keep getting you deeper into that self misery, and that's not good for your health. And you really need to start looking forward and work towards improving your situation. I know it's not easy, but matter of fact is that your issues won't fix themselves, and all we can do is give advice. I highly recommend seek the help of a social worker. I've done it too when I was in a similar situation and later even done a year of social work myself. They can directly help you with basically anything you struggle with and work with you towards the next steps. But in order to do so, they have to know you need help in the first place. It's also important that you put some trust into the people that try to help you, whether it's your social worker, psychiatrist or whoever else, because you will have to be able to open up to them. Don't hold back when doing so, they need to know exactly how you feel to help you accordingly. Also don't fear any negative consequences, these people are confidential and are there to help you, not punish you. That's all I got right now, sacrificed my break at work to type this so do me, and more importantly yourself a favor and don't just ignore this. If you need to talk, you can also always pm me here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tifa 1,485 Posted July 17, 2017 Share Posted July 17, 2017 Just don't mind them. Someone bullied me too and they didn't even get to finish school... or get a job jk but really dont mind what anyone's saying, i'm sure they like something that not everyone likes too heres a cute kitty Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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