KpopLover1986 261 Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 I'm a bit confused but not really actually if that makes any sense at all, well I'm 30yrs old I'll be 31 next April. I've always had a higher attraction to woman since the age of 13yrs old, I never ever had a boyfriend or either a girlfriend, I tried so hard to get a girlfriend online cause that's all I knew. I don't bother going out to places cause mostly users half the time in clubs and stuff that just only want one thing so I never had girlfriend girls online mostly played mind games with me, and that was puzzling as it was they either said I was not there type or so on. So around the age of 18yrs old I decided that I might be bisexual cause I've found some guy groups and stuff attractive and thought they are more interesting since how girls did me, everyone was straight in high school all I did was just get discriminated and tormented for who I was. So nothing worked out there as well. Moving on I started going to this social group I meet a guy there he seemed so nice and all and sweet he was my first boyfriend he moved in with me, and everything was fine we where together for two years then he started acting up cheating on me and being controlling. I had to get rid of him. I did he also had mental issues. But no one is normal in this world that's for sure, but my attraction to woman is still high up even with having a boyfriend and so on. So now I have a second boyfriend he's more nicer sweeter then the last one I had but I know it was fast but he had his eye on me, and I had my eye on him when the first one started to become a major butt to me. He's more caring and protective against me and he don't want no one to ever hurt me he's sweet, we love a lot of same things in common witch I find amazing. He knows how to cook but also my attraction to woman is still here, I wish sometimes I can just be fully straight cause I know I got a good guy this time but I'm so into woman and espically Asian woman at that highly turned on but I know you can't click on and off your sexuality. I had a friend I thought she was a friend or maybe more but they turned out to be users like a year ago they lived down some from me in the another building but we thought they where ok at first but she was bisexual also we fooled around but that's all nothing ever serious and then they move on. I get this a lot with girls Should I just try to forget about girls and move on and just be happy that guys like me it does beat being lonely but you can see where confusion lays in this now. I still think in the back of my head I will get a girlfriend but then how I know things are and people are I know it's never going to happen. (And mostly a lot of girls are straight) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CosmicAZNGangstars 1,948 Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 try to get into polyamorous relationships Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
-masayume- 3,749 Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 First you say you have never had a boy/girlfriend and then you say you had two boyfriends I didn't get that part. If you don't feel fully committed to your current boyfriend and you think you might cheat on him with a girl, you can either a) dump him or b) talk about how you feel and see if he will get your feelings. EDIT : I've re-read that part once again and got the point now, nevermind. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soilei 4,812 Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 uhm ...try just being with person you love. i think you think too much about the gender. You are already 30+ , i dont understand why u didnt try being with a girl if you are so insecure about which gender you prefer You only live once. GO out, get a girlfriend and test yourself. Only when u tested both girl-girl and girl-boy relationship you will stop being focused on gender and hopefully find someone u love. at the beginning yes sure looks matter and its what attracts you to the person, but later on you stay with him/her because of personality well i might be wrong. but this is how i see it. please dont get offended :c Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KpopLover1986 261 Posted December 30, 2016 Author Share Posted December 30, 2016 First you say you have never had a boy/girlfriend and then you say you had two boyfriends I didn't get that part. If you don't feel fully committed to your current boyfriend and you think you might cheat on him with a girl, you can either a) dump him or b) talk about how you feel and see if he will get your feelings. EDIT : I've re-read that part once again and got the point now, nevermind. But the thing is I like this guy as well, but I just still have high attractions I never had a bf or gf in the past but recently have. uhm ...try just being with person you love. i think you think too much about the gender. You are already 30+ , i dont understand why u didnt try being with a girl if you are so insecure about which gender you prefer You only live once. GO out, get a girlfriend and test yourself. Only when u tested both girl-girl and girl-boy relationship you will stop being focused on gender and hopefully find someone u love. at the beginning yes sure looks matter and its what attracts you to the person, but later on you stay with him/her because of personality well i might be wrong. but this is how i see it. please dont get offended :c That's the thing mostly the girls turn me down I've tried, and mostly girls are straight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soilei 4,812 Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 That's the thing mostly the girls turn me down I've tried, and mostly girls are straight. dont u have like a gay coffee bar or club in your town? i think you are just looking at the wrong places and might have smth to do with your overall surroundings. Im guessing not alot of girls around you have lesbian friends or they know someone who is. But once u change the circle of friends it will be easier to find. im not saying to get rid of your friends or smth, but to try finding someone with similar preferences when it comes to genders. I used to hang in gay bar cuz i thought coffee was really good tehre. i had no idea its "special bar". later on i have found that out and i met some people and i had offers from girls, without wanting them xd (i hope i can use word "gay" for this. english isnt first language q.q) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KpopLover1986 261 Posted December 30, 2016 Author Share Posted December 30, 2016 dont u have like a gay coffee bar or club in your town? i think you are just looking at the wrong places and might have smth to do with your overall surroundings. Im guessing not alot of girls around you have lesbian friends or they know someone who is. But once u change the circle of friends it will be easier to find. im not saying to get rid of your friends or smth, but to try finding someone with similar preferences when it comes to genders. I used to hang in gay bar cuz i thought coffee was really good tehre. i had no idea its "special bar". later on i have found that out and i met some people and i had offers from girls, without wanting them xd (i hope i can use word "gay" for this. english isnt first language q.q) sadly there isn't many clubs or anything these days since internet dating kinda of took over none in my area that's for sure. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soilei 4,812 Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 sadly there isn't many clubs or anything these days since internet dating kinda of took over none in my area that's for sure. really. where do you live? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KpopLover1986 261 Posted December 30, 2016 Author Share Posted December 30, 2016 really. where do you live? Bel Air Maryland North East Coast Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Soilei 4,812 Posted December 30, 2016 Share Posted December 30, 2016 Bel Air Maryland North East Coast well if croatia (small irrelevant country) has it. your state should too.. anyways i wish u good luck :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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