An Open Letter to the Woman Who Told My Family to Go Back to China

[Xiaoshu]

Dear Madam:

 

Maybe I should have let it go. Turned the other cheek. We had just gotten out of church, and I was with my family and some friends on the Upper East Side of Manhattan. We were going to lunch, trying to see if there was room in the Korean restaurant down the street. You were in a rush. It was raining. Our stroller and a gaggle of Asians were in your way.

 

But I was, honestly, stunned when you yelled at us from down the block, “Go back to China!â€

I hesitated for a second and then sprinted to confront you. That must have startled you. You pulled out your iPhone in front of the Equinox and threatened to call the cops. It was comical, in retrospect. You might have been charged instead, especially after I walked away and you screamed, “Go back to your fucking country.â€

“I was born in this country!†I yelled back.

 

It felt silly. But how else to prove I belonged?

 

This was not my first encounter, of course, with racist insults. Ask any Asian-American, and they’ll readily summon memories of schoolyard taunts, or disturbing encounters on the street or at the grocery store. When I posted on Twitter about what happened, an avalanche of people replied back to me with their own experiences.

 

But for some reason — and, yes, it probably has to do with the political climate right now — this time felt different.

 

Walking home later, a pang of sadness welled up inside me.

 

You had on a nice rain coat. Your iPhone was a 6 Plus. You could have been a fellow parent in one of my daughters’ schools. You seemed, well, normal. But you had these feelings in you, and, the reality is, so do a lot of people in this country right now.

 

Maybe you don’t know this, but the insults you hurled at my family get to the heart of the Asian-American experience. It’s this persistent sense of otherness that a lot of us struggle with every day. That no matter what we do, how successful we are, what friends we make, we don’t belong. We’re foreign. We’re not American. It’s one of the reasons that Fox News segment the other day on Chinatown by Jesse Watters, with the karate and nunchucks and broken English, generated so much outrage.

 

My parents fled mainland China for Taiwan ahead of the Communist takeover. They came to the United States for graduate school. They raised two children, both of whom went to Harvard. I work at The New York Times. Model minority, indeed.

 

Yet somehow I still often feel like an outsider.

 

And I wonder if that feeling will ever go away. Perhaps, more important, I wonder whether my two daughters who were with me today will always feel that way too.

 

Yes, the outpouring of support online was gratifying.

 

But, afterward, my 7-year-old, who witnessed the whole thing, kept asking my wife, “Why did she say, ‘Go back to China?’ We’re not from China.â€

 

No, we’re not, my wife said, and she tried to explain why you might have said that and why people shouldn’t judge others.

 

We’re from America, she told my daughter. But sometimes people don’t understand that.

I hope you do now.

 

 

Sincerely,

 

Michael Luo

 

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Michael Luo is deputy Metro editor and an editor on the Race/Related team at The New York Times. He can be reached on Twitter @MichaelLuo.image on Twitter

 

 

http://www.nytimes.com/2016/10/10/nyregion/to-the-woman-who-told-my-family-to-go-back-to-china.html

 

[nicophos]

should have told her as well, go back to where you came from like in europe. if shes gonna use that card, then she also is an expat as native americans were the original settlers. unless shes an american indian, she has no defense to her hypocritical logic. 

shes an asshole and an idiot, rude also. 

[Kyrie]

As soon as she returns to the sewage pipe she crawled out of. 

[Joon]

Hello, lady with the nice raincoat and an iPhone 6 Plus. This is the land of immigrants. Our country was built on the sacrifices immigrants (both willing and unwilling) made for this country. Unless she is a native American, who have been displaced and murdered and to this day still do not get the rights they deserve, she has no claim telling anyone else to go back to their country.

[EXORCIST]

Mod will banned me again if i talk about race.

 

so i have no comment ... and i hate all race equally ....

[Jcey]

You make so much effort to settle in and try your best to fit in, one word from an asshole and suddenly it makes you feel like you will always be a foreigner.

 

I personally have no problem with that feeling because I grew up in both countries and my heart is divided but I feel bad for people who solely belong to and are dedicated to one country but still are made to feel like they don't belong.