JeongBAEHyun 1,841 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Really, Taeyeon doesn't know when it began. But Jessica, Jessica. Sooyeon, she just began distancing herself against the other. She doesn't know really when it began. Was it during their 2011? Was it because she was out there being told by the company to 'act out the sinking ship of TaengSic'? Which, to Taeyeon's perspective, was just her being in denial of what she actually was and is feeling. She also doesn't know when it began, how she'd feel a smile creep up to her cheeks whenever Sooyeon would jokingly hold her hand during practice, when she was tired, there Sooyeon was and shedding off her 'lazy' image, she would work her hardest and dance to her heart out. Its just that the company thinks its better to relegate her to being the 'lazy' member of the group and Taeyeon feels pained thinking about the times Sooyeon would talk to them late at night, eyes droopy and sad about not being able to show her true potential. Taeyeon clearly admired her, but never admitted it publicly seeing as how she admired the other in more ways than one. And since Taeyeon doesn't know, even until this day on what to make of her feelings. She did what every other person wouldn't do: push the other away. This wasn't even the company's decision (even the higher-ups have been asking her what her deal was with being 'cold' to Jessica), it was solely her. Normally everyone would talk about their personal issues once in a while, but it was one of those things she herself couldn't bring about to herself. Taeyeon could clearly see the hurt in the other's eyes when they would be finished with recordings and performances. Distancing herself from the other when simply a few months ago they'd finish promotions for 'Oh!' and they'd spend time in the waiting room talking about the most mundane things. Miyoung wasn't even part of the equation like what most of their fans thought. Taeyeon knew Miyoung was clearly worried of the two's situation, but she knew Taeyeon needed it more than Sooyeon did. And as a matter of fact, it tore Miyoung all the more. She's been vocal about the times Taeyeon and Sooyeon wouldn't even look eye to eye and the former would avoid physical contact with the other at all when back a few years ago she would be clinging to the other constantly. 'Taengsic' the word Taeyeon constantly despised and yearned for at the same time. It was something that felt painful to hear and yet pleasing to her senses at the same time, she vividly remembers the Sketchbook performance they had and Sooyeon's reassuring smile to her after the recording, telling the other she was fine even without her. And it completely broke Taeyeon, not that she'd ever tell the other. It was at that time she came clean to herself and her beliefs, she admitted what she was scared of even thinking about at first; that she was clearly head over heels for the girl she met a decade ago in the practice room clad in sweatpants and sweater equipped with the most hopeful grin any trainee at that time could suffice. Miyoung understood her clearly, and so did the other members. Miyoung was very open-minded about her thoughts, so it doesn't come to a rise that they matched well with their friendship. Yoona was supportive of the other and so were the other 6 about their leader. The only person she's never said a mum about it was the person of interest herself. She's never had the guts to even talk to the other in anything for a few years now. So it came to no surprise from the other 7 that when their company told them of the other's sudden departure from the group; Taeyeon would be the most affected. And yet it never showed publicly, she got hate for it. And people would think she's feeding off the 'fox' image Sooyeon's fans gave her, but in all reality; each accusation that Sooyeon's departure was because of her made it all the more painful to bear. Not in a million years would Kim Taeyeon ever think of removing the person whom she treasured dear the most impossibly far away. People thought she was strongest when Sooyeon left, but after all those strong and resilient poker and smiles; she would spend the rest of rehearsals and dress runs tears running down her cheek everytime she'd see where Sooyeon was supposed to stand. She'd constantly bite her tongue for nearly calling out to Sooyeon who's always been late to rehearsals cleaning herself up constantly before. Now Taeyeon doesn't even get the privilege to scold the other for not being there. The company instructed them to cut connections with Sooyeon, but it never stopped Yoona and Miyoung from talking with the person whom they were closest to aside from the others. And it pained Taeyeon, hearing Yoona mutter on the phone how much she misses 9 girls standing on stage as one and hearing the voice of the other across the line. Even till this day, Taeyeon still can't manage to face or hear Sooyeon's voice for herself. She thinks its comforting to simply love Sooyeon from afar, and away. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pyo Hyemi 6,831 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 tl;dr Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
✨ Lunar Miracle ✨ 1,457 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 del Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Irene Is Life 922 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Is this a fanfic? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hangry 1,124 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 fanfic? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
diamandis 561 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Jessica was the one who reached out to taeyeon, taeyeon rejected her i didnt read that shitload, im too tired Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
--- 967 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 i was like WTF am i reading, then i realized it was a fanfic lol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JeongBAEHyun 1,841 Posted June 17, 2016 Author Share Posted June 17, 2016 I hope you know no one is going to read that especially with that terrible font is it really that bad? sorry, its my first try haha Is this a fanfic? well, it is under fanfiction after all.... tl;dr haha idk how to do a tl;dr for this. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VT Evil Queen 4,273 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 ha Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Oh Devonne 272 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 what Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ddeona Oneul Bame 61,624 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Are you the new JeongBaeHyun? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wdwseva 825 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 wait i thought this was an article or smth y'all pranked me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
YoonYul's no1 shipper! 7,752 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 what.this is too long Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
✨ Lunar Miracle ✨ 1,457 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 is it really that bad? sorry, its my first try haha well, it is under fanfiction after all.... haha idk how to do a tl;dr for this. Oh I didn't mean to discourage you, I just meant it's a little long. I'm sorry Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
diamandis 561 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 It's good, ignore the hateful trash bags Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hikaruaxi 1,243 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Taengsic <3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wdwseva 825 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 it's good btw Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Seulchu 9,452 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Taengsic Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Junhoes_hoe 7,693 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Delusional Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Irene Is Life 922 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 is it really that bad? sorry, its my first try haha well, it is under fanfiction after all.... haha idk how to do a tl;dr for this. Didn't see that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Yixing's left buttcheek 103 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 I didn't read some of that.Too long Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ikezuki 158 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Its fine. So wheres chapter 2? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
soyoubae 45 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 i was like WTF am i reading, then i realized it was a fanfic lol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BazzlePink 1,427 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 ok Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TaengTaengoo 1,924 Posted June 17, 2016 Share Posted June 17, 2016 Taengsic is always angst 💔 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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