Reishi32 311 Posted February 26, 2016 Share Posted February 26, 2016 I just wanna share my experience in my school and college life. When I was tenth grade in High School, I'm just an ordinary student. Joining this 'funny guy' group (a group that is the life of the class. group of prankster and laughmaker) in my own class, and I was thinking that should be no problem. Until one day I feel they're talking behind me. I'm not literally heard it, but it reflected from their behaviour when they looked at me. This feeling continued until we separated to each higher class, when I saw a glimpse of them, I feel small and not worthy and I feel that they're mocking me from afar, even until I graduated. This feeling re-appeared when I'm entering college but with different people. In front of my parents I always said that I have many friends, and they're good to me. But in reality, big no (or that's what I'm thinking). Why did this happened? Does anyone here ever feel the same? *p.s: Now I've moved to other college because of my lack of seriousness in studying. I myself thought that's the effect of my stories above. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
VIP4EVER 2,297 Posted February 26, 2016 Share Posted February 26, 2016 yes... I have so many fake friends.. Only one true friend.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shalnark 989 Posted February 26, 2016 Share Posted February 26, 2016 Yes but years ago, when I was 13 I didn't have many friends in my class. One girl was my "friend" but she just made up rumors about me and told lies about me so the other girls in my class would like her better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reishi32 311 Posted February 26, 2016 Author Share Posted February 26, 2016 yes... I have so many fake friends.. Only one true friend.. Yes but years ago, when I was 13 I didn't have many friends in my class. One girl was my "friend" but she just made up rumors about me and told lies about me so the other girls in my class would like her better. I FEEL THAT TOO. My best friends are my final year classmates in highschool. Even until now we're still in contact. But when I'm alone, I always think "are they really my best friends?" So I always lived with suspicion till the point anyone compliments me, I always feel they're fake compliments. Even when the one who compliments me is my family. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fadinha Azul 79 Posted February 26, 2016 Share Posted February 26, 2016 I have serious psychological problems that were caused by bullying Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reishi32 311 Posted February 26, 2016 Author Share Posted February 26, 2016 I have serious psychological problems that were caused by bullying what happened? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fadinha Azul 79 Posted February 26, 2016 Share Posted February 26, 2016 what happened? I suffered bullying for a long time. This whole situation turned me into a depressive person and without confidence. I still suffer for what happened to me. Sometimes I just want to forget. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reishi32 311 Posted February 26, 2016 Author Share Posted February 26, 2016 I suffered bullying for a long time. This whole situation turned me into a depressive person and without confidence. I still suffer for what happened to me. Sometimes I just want to forget. There's a time when I feel depressed too. Especially when I'm regretting something wrong that I've made. When I'm depressed I can't tell anyone about my problem. Maybe because of my past, so it's hard to tell ppl how do I feel. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fadinha Azul 79 Posted February 26, 2016 Share Posted February 26, 2016 There's a time when I feel depressed too. Especially when I'm regretting something wrong that I've made. When I'm depressed I can't tell anyone about my problem. Maybe because of my past, so it's hard to tell ppl how do I feel. I wish you the best! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sublime 2,137 Posted March 2, 2016 Share Posted March 2, 2016 Until middle high school I was living in a world where everyone was really kind so high school kinda taught me the hard way. A group of obnoxious kids made fun of me for practically everything I did and I beat myself up hard over it because I didn't understand what I did so badly that could earn that kind of treatment. I knew they liked it if I show any sort of reaction so it taught me to conceal what I feel. The habit still stays with me but just because it's more comfortable to not show emotions irl. Only when I attend uni that I understand that they just like picking on everyone who doesn't look a certain way, but it already ruined me a little too hard. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ooahooah 573 Posted April 25, 2016 Share Posted April 25, 2016 i made mistake once and my senior made fun of me alot, bit too much (all of us were nerd) i promised to myself to fix my bad habits, my appearance and now in high school i made lots of friends that i love. if you think they dont like you, it might be bc of your personality? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KaniPi 2,626 Posted April 26, 2016 Share Posted April 26, 2016 Yes, I do. That's why I feel uncomfortable around some people, because I know they talk badly about me, and relentlessly hate me. I have never ever talked to them either. I can tell by their body language. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dolores Haze 3,663 Posted April 26, 2016 Share Posted April 26, 2016 i felt like that with the bunch of fake friends i had in cram school but not in my real schools. tbh i feel more like it with the friends i have on facebook, which is one of the reasons why i stay away from facebook. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yeoleeda 406 Posted April 27, 2016 Share Posted April 27, 2016 same here Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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