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[Cizza]

I was thinking about something and now that you developed your story and placed your context, it totally changed everything. First, I think you're really compassionate to be willing to help this girl. Obviously your father doesn't want this girl to draw problems and he's probably scared to take the responsability and to interacts with police (my mother is also like that).

 

But yeah, the situation actually escalated pretty quickly, and the sad thing with old people is, it's probably harder for them to change, because they're closer to their lifetime, so it's less worth for them to change. The situation also seems kind of exceptionnal.

 

Did you move from your family house? I also don't know how toxic your parents are, but from what you've written, they seems toxic, and obstinate, I mean if your father wants to disinherited you, that's pretty fck up. As I say I'm not sure how toxic he is, I'm not sure if he's really thinking about it, or he just wants apologize. 

 

I personally think that teaching with violence it's pretty garbage. It doesn't teach that much, actually it teaches more about violence and fear than anything. But yeah, the situation seems pretty complicated.

 

If your family is pretty damn toxic and you're living a hell with them, I would've personally tried to move out, cut some depencies, get some distance, I mean just find some peace. Surround yourself with better people and start drawing your life. But as I said, I'm far from knowing your family situation, so take my advice with a grain of salt.

 

My family its kinda toxic but they never had done this yet. This is a big surprise for me. My relationship with my father have ups and downs and because of my mom we always resolve things pretty "quickly".

 

I'm very afraid to make my mom sad, then i just let the things go because of her behavior. She is always saying she's going to die, i'm destroying everything, she's not a good mother and i hate her. but i'll aways take care of her, everything i do its to make her believing herself and not depend on him.

 

now i live with my parents, i'm on college majoring jornalism and i work mid-time. Every cent of my money i use to pay my transports and expenses with university so i'm completly broke to rent a place for living and pay expenses like water, light and food.

 

My only choice is cancel my registration on university, and look for a work full-time,look a place to live or be the same situation i am right now, studying, working, paying my college and locking me in my room for not able to fight with my parents again.

[gibi]

My family its kinda toxic but they never had done this yet. This is a big surprise for me. My relationship with my father have ups and downs and because of my mom we always resolve things pretty "quickly".

 

I'm very afraid to make my mom sad, then i just let the things go because of her behavior. She is always saying she's going to die, i'm destroying everything, she's not a good mother and i hate her. but i'll aways take care of her, everything i do its to make her believing herself and not depend on him.

 

now i live with my parents, i'm on college majoring jornalism and i work mid-time. Every cent of my money i use to pay my transports and expenses with university so i'm completly broke to rent a place for living and pay expenses like water, light and food.

 

My only choice is cancel my registration on university, and look for a work full-time,look a place to live or be the same situation i am right now, studying, working, paying my college and locking me in my room for not able to fight with my parents again.

 

 

 

 

Hey, I'm assuming, by what you said, that you're Brazilian? 

 

Se você quiser conversar pode me mandar uma DM, ok? Eu espero que as coisas melhorem pra vc, realmente não é justo e eu sei como é difícil conviver com uma família (ou, mais especificamente, com um pai) abusiva então se vc quiser falar sobre isso em pt mesmo, caso isso te deixe mais confortável, pode aparecer a qualquer hora ;; Espero que não chegue ao ponto em que vc precise sair da faculdade... Se vc tiver algum lugar em que vc possa ficar enquanto a situação tá assim tão difícil em casa, talvez isso possa ajudar... Não tem nenhum alojamento da facul, alguém que você conheça ou talvez um parente mesmo?

 

I hope things improve soon ;;

 

 

 

Edited February 10, 2018 by yujuwon

[Ã travers ciel]

I am way too depressed. I've tried so much therapy and medications but nothing has worked. Feeling more hopeless as I get older. My fingers are crossed that this year will be the year it all gets better. I guess I'll give treatment another shot. 

[Khyler]

I am way too depressed. I've tried so much therapy and medications but nothing has worked. Feeling more hopeless as I get older. My fingers are crossed that this year will be the year it all gets better. I guess I'll give treatment another shot.

Why are you depressed?

[iwanttolearn]

hello, can i post here if i feel anxious about something i did?

[-masayume-]

hello, can i post here if i feel anxious about something i did?

Yes.

[Cat Pancakes]

I've been on OH for a while but not always active but I'm trying to make up for that now because I can tell there are some amazing people here. A little bit about me, I've just recently been diagnosed with ADHD-PI as of December 2017 after wondering if I was somewhere on the autism spectrum. On top of that, I also have a severe hearing loss but because my hearing in my left is completely shot, I only hear in my right with an aid. I'm mainly oral so it's always great fun telling people I have a hearing loss since oftentimes they're amazed at how well I speak. Oh, and that's not all either as I also have epilepsy, Celiac Disease, hypothyroidism, and these random bouts of migraines/nausea that keep me laid up sometimes for a few days. As weird as it sounds coming from someone with such a severe to profound hearing loss, music has helped kept my sanity especially K-Pop among others so that's why I joined OH when I did. Now I'm hoping to become a more active member after getting my meds sorted out even though I'm still trialing one. I hope I can help bring a little light here in whatever way I can as well. 

[mochi101]

 

I don't know where to start.

I study in an arts academy and i am a dance major. I spend my days dancing. Recently I've gained weight because of comfort eating (idk how much, but it's really noticeable to me. even though it might not be to others.) and I have a hard time struggling with it. I just don't feel like going for classes anymore and I lose all my interest in doing anything. I feel ashamed and honestly just want to stay at home. I don't know what triggered my comfort eating. And I've dealt with serious body image issues since everyone in class is so...well, for the lack of a better word, perfect. I understand that technique is more important, but there is also a lot of emphasis on aesthetic. I don't know what to do honestly and I can't get help. The last time I did, I was scolded by my mum and shunned by my family members because I had this issue. I come from a strict asian family, and you guessed it - I'm the only kid from an arts academy. My mum is a doctor, and my brothers are accountants. So understandably they don't know what I go through. Just felt like putting this down here because I feel I am spiralling even deeper. And I can't get out.

 

[Got7´s Melody]

im so fucken tired of life

[Got7´s Melody]

 

I don't know where to start.

 

I study in an arts academy and i am a dance major. I spend my days dancing. Recently I've gained weight because of comfort eating (idk how much, but it's really noticeable to me. even though it might not be to others.) and I have a hard time struggling with it. I just don't feel like going for classes anymore and I lose all my interest in doing anything. I feel ashamed and honestly just want to stay at home. I don't know what triggered my comfort eating. And I've dealt with serious body image issues since everyone in class is so...well, for the lack of a better word, perfect. I understand that technique is more important, but there is also a lot of emphasis on aesthetic. I don't know what to do honestly and I can't get help. The last time I did, I was scolded by my mum and shunned by my family members because I had this issue. I come from a strict asian family, and you guessed it - I'm the only kid from an arts academy. My mum is a doctor, and my brothers are accountants. So understandably they don't know what I go through. Just felt like putting this down here because I feel I am spiralling even deeper. And I can't get out.

 

 

 

love, not everyone is perfect. Sure they look perfect but have you thought of the lengths they do to maintain that body shape? Confort food could be a problem but it could also have an upside. Inside of eating those donuts you like or that bag of chips, purge on fruit, eat those veggie chips. Even if it's not so interesting its best to finish your goal. I understand you come from a strict family, so i would think you want to show them up. Of course, if you strongly dislike it, then follow your heart and stop, find another pasion. Do what you want. Its your life. Dancing was your passion, remember what made you like it and find it, make it fun..cute, find your way. Also, comfort food, do you eat it if you're stressed about the dancing, go out for a run or eat healthy stuff like i suggested. If you keep ignoring your problem or keep eating your feelings, it will get worse and you won't have a solution. Also if this deals with depression or anxiety, talk to someone, make an appointment, it's nice to vent and find a solution or if you cant or don't want too, my pm is always open <33 i wish you the best

[Got7´s Melody]

I am way too depressed. I've tried so much therapy and medications but nothing has worked. Feeling more hopeless as I get older. My fingers are crossed that this year will be the year it all gets better. I guess I'll give treatment another shot. 

 

what have you been taking as medication? how many times do you go to therapy? are you at ease with your therapist? depressed  about what? trauma? life? if you dont want to open up its fine.

I love how you have hope for your future, that can get you to the goal you want.

Keep fighting and remember you have friends irl and here.

Hit me up if you wanna talk, i got you

hello, can i post here if i feel anxious about something i did?

 

 

of course we wont judge and we may give helpful advice! spam on hun

[Got7´s Melody]

im fucken done with myself.....i swear......i should die 

[Got7´s Melody]

Being with someone ....is nice....

meeting someone else...whos amazing....beautiful...conforting....

someone who calls me and cries happy tears because they hear my voice.

Someone who loves all of me...loves every part of me and more.

Someone ive had a crush on....because i love them too.

First....i called that someone mother since they were older than me...

Then i mentioned how they were sweet and how we need to be together in the next life...

someone who i would anything for....just to make them smile....

someone ....i fell for.

Someone i want so bad...someone im willing to leave my current relationship for.

Because my boyfriend doesnt understand me....like that someone does.

yet,......

that someones married.

that someone has a kid.

 

That someone .....who loves me the same way.

That someone who wants a future with me.

That someone who loves their husband but loves me more.

 

That someone....who kissed me....that someone who....made me feel alive....

 

that someone.....who rejected me....

[Got7´s Melody]

i feel like a wreck.......my head is filled with all these ugly thoughts i want to ignore.

The depression is attacking me again.

The one someone who helped me.....isnt there.

They want to be....but they cant.

Im a mess...and im too tired to clean myself up.

they dont get how.......im tired.

[Got7´s Melody]

My tears are coming again....

im living like there is no tomorrow...because there isnt one.

Its not a death wish, just a knowing. 

 

Your born alone, you die alone and the world just drops a bunch of rules on top of you, to make you forget...but i never forget.

[Got7´s Melody]

in a dead end and a rock place....fuck me huh? 

[cake mf]

Being with someone ....is nice....

meeting someone else...whos amazing....beautiful...conforting....

someone who calls me and cries happy tears because they hear my voice.

Someone who loves all of me...loves every part of me and more.

Someone ive had a crush on....because i love them too.

First....i called that someone mother since they were older than me...

Then i mentioned how they were sweet and how we need to be together in the next life...

someone who i would anything for....just to make them smile....

someone ....i fell for.

Someone i want so bad...someone im willing to leave my current relationship for.

Because my boyfriend doesnt understand me....like that someone does.

yet,......

that someones married.

that someone has a kid.

 

That someone .....who loves me the same way.

That someone who wants a future with me.

That someone who loves their husband but loves me more.

 

That someone....who kissed me....that someone who....made me feel alive....

 

that someone.....who rejected me....

Sounds like you got played hun.

[cake mf]

I just feel like I'm not the person that anyone trusts. That others only view me as fun not as an actual person.

 

I can't ever be serious because then I'm spoiling everybody's fun. Everybody thinks I'm just some night on the town or one month fling, but I have hopes and dreams and needs too.

Edited February 16, 2018 by Cakeyness123

[zao]

My tears are coming again....

im living like there is no tomorrow...because there isnt one.

Its not a death wish, just a knowing. 

 

Your born alone, you die alone and the world just drops a bunch of rules on top of you, to make you forget...but i never forget.

I always feeling like this, so I hope the best for you.

If you want to talk about this, I'm here for you.

 

I just feel like I'm not the person that anyone trusts. That others only view me as fun not as an actual person.

 

I can't ever be serious because then I'm spoiling everybody's fun. Everybody thinks I'm just some night on the town or one month fling, but I have hopes and dreams and needs too.

Ah, I reflect myself at this point ; ;

[cake mf]

 

Ah, I reflect myself at this point ; ;

But srsly, I just want to be taken seriously for once in my life.

[Khyler]

But srsly, I just want to be taken seriously for once in my life.

But what do you mean by taken seriously? Precisely

[cake mf]

But what do you mean by taken seriously? Precisely

It's just everybody makes jokes about me being dumb and ditzy, which is true and all, but that's not the only things I am.

[Khyler]

It's just everybody makes jokes about me being dumb and ditzy, which is true and all, but that's not the only things I am.

Yeah but how seriously?

[cake mf]

Yeah but how seriously?

Seriously enough to where ppl don't think they need to "t a l k  l i k e  t h i s" to me at least.

[deobizone]

theres a lot of times i rant ab my job / life (on rant thread, or even to my friends) but a lot of times i find myself omitting details because im certain people will see me as psychotic. and perhaps its deserved , but i need to get it off my chest

 

 

honestly, working is hell for me. im already really unstable, but at work, it really brings it out of me/makes it worse. ive been working here for over 2 years (since late 2015) and as times go by. its just gets worse. and i cant pinpoint exactly what the problem is. i feel like its really just accumulation of all my problems.

what feels thw worst of it is ocd because my co-workers are really messy and lazy. i work in a warehouse... and theres so many ways the messyness bothers me. and it makes it worse that when i organize/clean it up, my managers will come up to me and tell me to just "focus" on my job. it just...sucks because im the one fixing people work that doesnt do their job properly. but i get scolded for trying to fix it. why cant they scold the people that dont do their job right. and i cant stand that "stop it" bc its not something i do because i feel like it. it just really bothers me, and its compulsive to fix it. i cant just turn that impulse off. but after they scold me. i dont want it to happen again, so i force myself to just focus on ,my job 100% of the time. and it really causes mental breakdowns from me because i cant stand it.

other parts of the ocd is bad for me repetitive behaviors...but also pretty bad intrusive thoughts, especially about getting hurt, or killing myself. i carry a box cutter for work. and a lot of times i fantasize about taking it out of my pocket and either cutting myself minorly or really just killing myself. or about being run over because theres a lot of crossing the street on the way to work. but its mostly just thoughts about cutting myself. i try to shake it out of my head. but it keeps coming back when i think about it. ir drives me crazy

 

and socially its also hard. its not just being shy or anxious really. i have pretty bad avpd.  i just cant talk to people.i want to quit but my mum says i cant. because theres no other job i can get because i cant talk to people. and while it hurts. its true. and ive already disappointed my family too much. quitting would be the last straw. i was deadbeat in highschool because i was too depressed to do any work a majority of the time. i only passed because my teachers pity me because my issues and let me hand in assignments weeks/months late (which is nonsense tbh bc i was in ap classes my final year. its pathetic) i didnt go to my graduation becauise i had a panic attack, and locked myself in my room, which my parentsalmost knocked down trying to get me out..and college - i couldnt afford the college i wanted to go/was accepted to, so i went to community college nearby, which was fine at first. but then another really bad wave of depression took over me, and i couldnt will myself to go to class anymore. i started skipping classes and at end of the 2nd term, i went to admissions with my mom to "drop out" to be told, i already had been for not going to classes.. a big part of me losing motivation to go to classes was, theres a required speech class and i just...couldnt do it. i did one presentation and my whole body was shaking the whole time. its really pathetic. its probably basis human skill to interact with others, to speak. but i just cant. and its a skill thats forever lost to me. and my coworkers -- theyre all friends, the few i have to work with everyday. and they all...dont like me, basically. the past 2+ years ive had to deal with them harassing and bullying me on a daily basis. even if they see me crying. they dont let up. they just hget worse. because they know im pathetic pos. only one of them will ask if im ok. but still most of the time, she'll be talking about me/teasing me with her friends. and everytime they hire someone knew, they just sort of "recruit" them to their group and it becomes worse. and online forums like this is probably a sactuary to other shy people. but not for me. after i make or reply to a thread or make a thread, i dont dare look at it again or my notifications,m bc i just cant handle talking to people. even online. ive just got it bad. theres no help for me. im doomed to be like this for rest of my life. stuck in shitty job & leeching off my parents.

 

i have really bad irritability too. i get mad pretty easily. and it causes  me to kick things (empty boxes) at work, or throw things, drop them.  and im always afraid my managers will see it and confront me (bc theres camera like everywhere ofc) and it hasnt happened yet. but...i threw something yesterday and it fell apart and broke. im not sure if they care because people break thinks a lot in here. like throw them at eachother or just spill or drop it. (a lot of times i even clean it up if i see it on the floor) but i cant handle confrontation. and it happens a lot these days. most the times, it causes no real damage im sure. but im just...anxious. i mean. yesterday what i threw def broke but whatever. i am really crazy. my stability is dissipating. im not sure if theyll confront me, but if they do. ill probably clumsily mumble about how much i hate being there.  and they wont care and will just...scold me again. and i punch myself in the head a lot, or continuously knock my head on the wall, or a metal cart. anmd i noticed my coworkers notice it. so they know im crazy. my managers prob notice it too. im just wishing they just had enough with my god damn psychotic ass and fire me or something. because theres no way ill ever be able to bring myself to quit. whatever. they prob will never. they prob just collectively talk crap about how fucked up i am like my coworkers does. sigh/

 

i really am messed up.lost cause. i wish i would just die already. if anyone actually read all this im sorry...and if anyoen wants to suggest meds or therapy. i did that from when i was 13-18ish. mostly because when i was 12 or 13 i told my mom i wanted to kill myself after my sister daily torment of me. if that had not happened...i dont know. i think my parents partly pity me because of it really. all these problems i have. im thankful to it in a way so i dont have to hear them always telling me to go out and get friends. because i just...cant.

 

im sorry to say all this mess. no one really has to reply. i prob am logging myself out of OH for awhile because i really just feel the need to seclude myself from now on. but i just needed this off my hcest in a "safe space"