The Official Mental and Physical Health Support Thread [PLEASE READ OP]

[Bel.]

​well hello.

It's probably an odd request, but I would like to have some guidance over something I'm going through right now. The reason why I'm asking that on a kpop forum and not with my friends or even my boyfriend is that they might have a biased opinion on what I want to know or/and see me in a different way and I really want to avoid that.

 

Is there someone I can pm about it that wouldn't mind being flooded over my problem ?  

[Bel.]

 

Feels like I've been treated like shit lately, today being a shit day and that probably didn't help me. I usually just take it all upon myself and repress those feelings, but sometimes I wonder if people doesn't understand I have feeling too? I just smile and go on like nothing happened, like i'm fine being laugh at even when i'm serious about my problems, but just constantly and also being push-out because of it, cause i'm too different, cause i'm not taken seriously? I'm just tired of it.

 

I have been reaching for help before. A lot of really horrible things happened in my life and it's affecting my diligence as well. I lost someone who was very close to me, his funeral is soon... Because of that life/pause it created, I had to take care of everything, I have to deal with a bunch or school works that are long overdue in top of the one I have right now. I am stressed about my future and just too tired all the time cause i'm just too stressed, making me sleep a lot. Sleeping depress me, cause when I sleep I dream and I always remember my dreams. They are perfect and it makes it unbearable waking up everyday to see that everything was just the product of my imagination, that I have to wake up of bed...

 

I don't know if it's because i'm just highly disappointed with a lot of things recently, maybe people will think I overreact, but I just need a break of that constant messing around with me. I told them it was not ok, that it hurts me, that I hate being this pushed out. Yet, it will always stays like this. It's just horrible when you share those things and they act like nothing happened. That it's just a small phase, that it's OK. Not honey it's not. 

 

Anyway, I needed to share all of it cause it was eating me inside. I just don't know what I should do about it, just let it cold down or telling people that the jokes are making me feel like shit again and again just to be ignored the day after? I have absolutely 0 time to see someone, I don't think the person at my school is a proper therapist and I will probably need to pay to see one, which I just can't afford at the moment. 

 

 

[Bel.]

 

Hey ma belle â¤ï¸

We talk lots already, i know how you are hurt and how its hard for you lately,  maybe you want to talk with someone else from here too.

We can talk anytime you know where iam, im always here for you, je suis avec toi ~

 

 

Thanks Lulu. I feel like I have been exaggerating my problems, I think it was just maybe a very shitty day. Re-reading my messy essay uuuh

I'll get through this as always.  â¤ï¸

 

Edited March 21, 2018 by Beâ„“â„“a