The Official Mental and Physical Health Support Thread [PLEASE READ OP]

[kimvfilms]

hello, so ive scheduled an appointment with a hypnotherapist to help me distinguish true repressed memories vs false memories in order to decide if what really happened...happened in the past...wish me luck

 

Good luck fam! I hope everything goes the best way possible

[kimvfilms]

thank you, its really my best shot i know people have said hypnosis is not the best route to recover memories but its the only way for me to find out the truth.

 

I can relate to your situation, and even if it's true hypnosis may not be the best way to recover memories, there are a few cases where it is the only way. It helped a lot in my case, and I hope it does the same for you!

[kimvfilms]

thanks..if you don't mind me asking, did you struggle with false memory vs repressed actual memory dilemma too?

 

Yes, I did. Something happened to me but since I was really young, memory isn't always accurate. I had a breakdown at school and got this images in my mind but there were a few inconsistencies and I wasn't sure it was real, and my therapist had his doubts too so, we used the help of an hypnotherapist. In my case, it turned out to be there was a fake memory that got mixed with a real one somehow.

 

 

 

Your case may be different of course, but I understand the struggle and uncertainty of not knowing what's real and what isn't...

Edited March 6, 2018 by blitzkrieg bop

[kimvfilms]

Bless you! you have no idea how relieved i am to have someone to relate too..

 

I feel you fam. Whatever you may want or need, I'm here so just PM me, alright?

Edited March 6, 2018 by blitzkrieg bop

[kimvfilms]

 

 

 

I really wish that I can turn back the clock to 2 months ago. Because of what I done, I lost treasures that are precious to me. I continue to smile when all I want to do is cry. It's really hard to stay strong. Some days, I just dunno what to do anymore. I lost interests in stuffs that I have passion for. Sorry, but I just need a place to let out my feeling.

 

 

 

It's hard to live with regret, wishing we haven't done something and not being able to think about anything aside of what we lost. Eventually it will stop hurting as much as it does now though... if there aren't many, or even if there's almost anything you can truly enjoy right now to use as a motivation to keep going, try to hold onto the idea that this pain will get better. I know it does so, don't lose hope and hold in there, alright? You can go through this fam. There's only one way from here now, and that way goes up.

You can do this!

[kimvfilms]

How do one stay strong? Honestly, I been unable to sleep recently. Even when I sleep, the same nightmare keep gripping me every night.

 

I honestly feel so broken and started doing stuffs that I am against. Smoking, drinking...just to release the stress and frustration I feel.

 

Some days, I just wish that I will never wake up again so that I can be free from all the misery and agonies.

 

I try my best to stay strong in front of this girl who is really precious to me even though she does not feel the same way.

 

But honestly, I am losing the battle more and more to smile even in front of her now...

 

I was watching a movie yesterday (At Cafe 6) and I can relate to why 1 of the lead male actor ended up committing suicide too.

 

While I am not on that path yet, I ....

 

Man... trust me, I know how hard it is. I've always had lots of problems but not too long ago I got my heart broken. I don't even have all the pieces to pick it up so everything around me seemed to become even worse. Worst part is that I ended up acting in a way I've always been against and did many stupid things, a suicide attempt included. It feels like the best way to stop dealing with so much pain and problems but please, trust me when I tell you, it's not the answer.

 

You can PM if you want or I can do it if you want me to. You can decided not to and that's fine too, as long as you try to calm down a little. It will become more bearable with time, no lies.

[kimvfilms]

I will think about Pming you but maybe not now. Maybe in a few days..

 

You can do it whenever you want, my PM will always be open for you fam. Take care please! 

[kimvfilms]

I told my mom I wanted to kill myself and that I was miserable and losing my mind. All she did was play the victim card and make it about herself. I just really don’t know what to do anymore, I really don’t. It’s like no one in the damn world cares.

 

Hey, I know what it's like. My father used to take the same position as your mother and he still took it until very recently. I can tell you there's always at least one person who cares, even if you don't know that. I'm not sure if you still need help but, if you need someone to lists anytime, I'll always be up for it, alright? Take care mate!

[kimvfilms]

I feel like I should see a therapist since everyone says it's the silver bullet for making tangible progress on problems, but I don't really want to talk about my childhood or my sex life. I just want to get help with being more productive in my day to day life.

 

Also, I want to try medication for adhd again (tried the two most common ones at a low dose and they gave too many side effects and didn't help, but I know there are other options), but I moved to a sparsely populated state with no adhd specialists. I'm worried that anyone I could contact here, well, wouldn't know anything more about medication than what I can look up myself and would just throw ritalin at me and shrug their shoulders when I say it doesn't work. But IDK if this is a valid concern.

 

Hmm it would be extremely hard to get where you want to go (becoming more productive) without dealing with other problems that might be affecting you unconsciously though... I know sometimes it may feel like talking about past problems or really bad experiences is the last thing we would like to do because, either it makes us uncomfortable or can even make us feel like we're going through it again but, it's the best way to truly fix a problem. I hope you can get the help you want without doing this but, if things get worse please try to consider the option of going to a therapist.

 

 

I don't know anything about which meds you could take for adhd because I have a different problem, but hopefully you can find an alternative that can work well for you!

[kimvfilms]

lately, i've been thinking about my past...up until i was 13 years old i was very naughty. at first when looking back i didnt think the things i did was that bad, but as i thought about it more i kept worrying if i've done stuff that crossed the line. the thing is i can't be sure if it is false memory or if i actually did those things. HELP PLEASE.

 

Hmm mate, I thought more about this since you asked the other time. I'll answer you through DM in a while, alright? Take care please!

 

 

 

i don't know if things are getting gradually worse or if my abilities of dealing with these feelings are the ones failing, but i need to make some big decisions soon and every single one of them will change my future. i've been postponing this moment for almost a year already... i honestly just want to take off, sell all of my things and take the road. once my money and my food end i'll end as well, i just want to be free... if i could live surrounded by nature, away from the society but so close to the world, i think i would feel okay. everything is noise... i'm tired of how almost all of my problems are created because i'm not capable of dealing with anything... all inside my head, tearing everything apart and i just wanna be free...but even if i'm okay, where i am is never okay... this place is cursed, this family is cursed... it must mean i'm cursed too, right? that's what i wonder

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hey fam, take a moment and stop in there. Taking decisions isn't easy but try to remember, there isn't such a thing like good or bad decisions. There are just decisions and, regardless if you make a mistake now, there will always be ways to go back to the path you want. It's far easier said than done but, try not to think so much and go for the one you feel is the right one. Not the one you think, but the one you feel is the right one.

 

 

 

 

And, if you think you would be okay living surrounded by nature, why don't you make this your goal? Dealing with so many things at once could make you feel like there's nothing really good ahead, or even that there's nothing ahead, but I believe we will always have something waiting for us as long as we want to. You feel like the place you are in is never ok? Then build one! It's hard, but don't you think it could be worth the effort you may put into it at the end? Just think about this fam, and hang in there, alright? Take care.

 

Edited March 15, 2018 by blitzkrieg bop

[kimvfilms]

Some days, I thought I am fine again but then depression will strike me again. My friends have been offering me advices and encouragement but while I know that they are right, I can't take it in.

Right now at this very moment, I feel very tired. Too tired to fight it anymore the darkness that is surrounding me.

 

Oh man... You know, it's fine to feel tired like you do in this moment sometimes. Things can become too much but it can always get better. Life is defined by how much we try, and where we put out focus in. Just, don't stop trying fam. Depression is something we always have to fight with, and it won't win unless we let it do so. You can do this! Anything, you know, my DMs are always open. Please don't give up fam!

[kimvfilms]

There is someone who is very important to me. Because of her, I still continue fighting it. I really hope that I will never lose her

 

 

If that's what you're holding onto right now and it helps you to keep going, don't let this feeling go. I can relate a lot to you and, even though I lost the most important person to me, the feeling of her still being out there, is what keeps me going. Don't worry too much about losing her, focus on the fact she's still here!

[kimvfilms]

This might seem silly compared to what others are going through, but I've been struggling with my body image for years. I have OCD (real, life-inhibiting OCD), and I think maybe this is part of it. I've literally lost friends over this.

Anyway, I don't feel ugly. I just feel not important. Like others view me less because I'm not good looking.

It got better because I got a bf (literally the best-looking guy I've ever seen), and I know he loves me, but when I tell him how I feel, he just says, "You're not ugly." If I say something like, "But not handsome" or "not your type," he just says something like, "don't think too much. you're not ugly" or "but you treat me well" which really makes me think even he doesn't find me physically pleasing.

And, as trivial as that sounds, it just makes me feel awful. I had gotten better for a while, but my dad was diagnosed with cancer recently, and I've just gotten really depressed. Whenever I get depressed, my mind just focuses on my appearance, and I'll usually lose a few friends by arguing. I just blocked a friend of four years today.

I just don't know what to do. I kind of feel like my depression is really about my dad, but I don't want to think about that, so I'm deflecting it somewhere else. On the other, I really am bothered my bf won't give me any type of compliments on my appearance.

Anyway, sorry, I know it's dumb. I just wanted to get it out there in hopes I will feel better. My dad's having a major surgery tomorrow, so maybe that's what triggered my depression today.

I hope all y'all are okay.

 

Hey, nothing you may have to say is dumb or unimportant, alright? As long as it's bothering you, it will always be important.

 

 

In regards of the first part, I don't think there's much I can say since I haven't gone through something like that personally, but... maybe you should talk more in deep with your boyfriend about how you feel. No matter how ridiculous you think it could be to mention this to him, it's always important to talk about what bothers us or makes us feel bad in any way.

 

 

Dealing the perspective of a family member having cancer isn't easy, I understand that really well so, it's normal to feel sad, anxious, desperate and frustrated with the situation. Just remember that his fight just started, and he can win it. I'll be hoping for your father's surgery to go the best way possible! Take care, alright?

[kimvfilms]

my mom asked me if everything was alright mentally for me...and i lied lmao

 

why do i just self sabotage constantly

It's definitely not healthy to lie about stuff like this but... I understand the feeling that led to do so.

 

"Why do I just self sabotage constantly?" Maybe asking yourself that and think about it deeply could be a good way to start dealing with this and stop doing so. I hope you are alright and know you do deserve to feel good and get whatever is bothering you solved.