The Official Mental and Physical Health Support Thread [PLEASE READ OP]

[Enki91]

My social anxiety has let me hit a new low recently. I'm struggling with it for over 15 years with some ups and downs, but is has never been as bad as now.

It's causing such severe pain and exhaustion when i'm alone in public that i'm almost completely isolating myself now, and that prevents me from going forward in life. 

I've tried all the help available here but nothing really helped. I just feel stuck in this situation and honestly can't see myself ever living a normal life like this.

 

If anyone got any ideas or personal experience on how they battled this, it would be greatly appreciated.

[Enki91]

Hey, sorry to hear that. I have been suffering from social anxiety as well. I struggle to go outside, and I keep having really bad unwanted thoughts almost all the time. Its affected how I feel about myself, and I become very emotional/angry when alone. I have also pretty much isolated myself. I don't have any close friends. 

 

If you ever want to talk about stuff, you can speak to me if you want. 

 

Are you taking any anti-depressants? I have started taking them, and they have helped to a certain extent. Also, try to get counselling or see a Psychologist at least once a week, they usually have some good advice if they are helpful.

 

There's an app I usually use called Daylio, its easy to use, just rate how you're feeling, what you did during the day, and gives you an overall picture of your moods. 

 

Keep a journal, write down things that you want to do during the day. 

 

If you're worried about things, set a time during the afternoon maybe for 1 hour, to just worry and not do anything else, when that periods over, then do something you like.

 

Remember everyday is different, you can't control peoples thoughts/actions, its not you, its them.

 

Just take one step at a time.

 

Hope this helps.

 

Hey, thanks for your reply!

 

You've brought up a great point there. It's weird because i'm fully aware of this, yet it still subconsciously fucks me up all the time.

 

I've tried medication for half a year, but atleast the one i tried didn't really work long term. I guess it was more of a placebo effect.

 

Currently looking for a new psychologist, or rather doing that for a few months now without success. They're always completely booked out already.

I think my last option here is residential treatment, but i'm afraid it'll end up just like all previous therapies and only help for a short time.

 

Gonna give all your other suggestions a try, hope some of it works for me.

 

Anyway, thanks again, and likewise you can always message me if you need someone to talk 

[Enki91]

I hate to even say this but i'm getting really dark thoughts recently. My situation actually improved a lot, i got professional help and people who check up on me and yet i can't help but feel worse every single day. There's just this huge emptiness that i can't seem to break out of. I feel disconnected from everything, even my closest friends feel so distant and i can't really enjoy anything anymore, and i'm afraid that it's just a matter of time until my mind pushes me over the edge.

 

Anyone who was in a similar place, how did you deal with this? None of the things i tried seem to work for me, no matter how much effort i put into it.

[Enki91]

I read the OP but I'm not really sure if this is the place for this post, if there is a place.

 

 

I haven't been okay for a long time, but the people in this thread seem to be dealing with serious things, and I feel out of place. If there's anyone who'd like to hear my ranting and maybe talk, I'd like to be PMed, please.

 

I'm not good at socializing and I'm pretty lonely, so having someone to discuss this stuff with would be nice. Thank you.

 

 

To the people posting in this thread: I can't really offer advice, but I genuinely hope things get better for you, really. Good luck.

 

Please don't think like that, everyone's issues are relevant no matter their severity.

 

You, and everyone else reading this can message me anytime if you still need someone to talk to. I know i'm not very well off myself right now but if years of dealing with this have taught me one thing then its how important it is to talk about any issues with someone, and more so to be that someone for other people.

[Enki91]

So here's a follow up to my last post. Hiding it because it may be disturbing to some, so everyone can decide for themselves if they want to read it or not.

 

The last few days were horrible. My depression got to a point where i just wanted to end it all. I won't go into detail about it for obvious reasons, but i've had everything planned and was ready to go. I've decided to listen to my favorite songs one last time while thinking it all through, and i'm glad i did because it gave me enough time to realize that going out this way is not what i want and probably won't change the way i feel anyway. If anything, things would just get worse.

 

I'm not sure how it even came this far. I've always ruled out suicide as a solution for myself. I guess i just did the mistake to let every single issue pile up in my mind and by the time i had found a new therapist, it had already thrown me over the edge. I'll talk about it with her next week, ironically on one of my biggest idols birthday who recently lost his battle to this very same illness, but i've decided to share it here aswell in hopes that it may get someone else to think twice about this decision, and simply because opening up in this forum has had some kind of positive effect for me in the past.

 

 

[Enki91]

What you have write really touched me, i havent backtrack ancient posts so i dont know what have lead you to such a decision to want to end everything for good but if you havent it might be because the force to continue is bigger in you. 

Are you alone ? Do you have family/friends around you ?

Its good you talk about it and even more with a therapist !!!

Myself i never suffered about depression or i never have really put a word on it for myself when i was really down.

But my big sister did and it was really bad, i rmb some scene that i will never be able to forget.

But i was here for her, and even today because she is still fragile.

Maybe someone around you would like to be that person for you, try to find force in someone else if you feel ur getting down, if you feel you might want to end everything, dont stay alone, if you dont have someone irl please come always here to share, just to say its a bad day, dont be alone. 

 

Thanks for the encouraging words 

 

Loneliness is probably my biggest issue, only got my brother here that i can't meet very often due to work, the rest of my family and friends all live anywhere but close. My social anxiety doesn't really help either. I've tried to build new contacts but i don't know, i always feel out of place wherever i go, even here on OH. But yeah i think you're right, even when my mind had given up already there was still something that kept me here, i'm just afraid even that will be gone at some point. 

Edited March 18, 2018 by Enki91

[Enki91]

No i understand how u feel, sometimes its not easy to try to go in the middle of smtg that exist already, but its not out of the place to want to build smtg or made new friends, to want to share.

Express yourself more and dont let this feeling eat you, you have nothing to loose in trying to make new contacts

For the family part im bit like you too, i only have my sister and my godson near me, my brother is far away too but i try to enjoy the most possible when he is here and we pm often, just a little hello or a good night is fine already, meet him when u can

Never loose this little smtg please ♥ï¸

I add u as friend, if u need u can pm me, lol i just saw we are the same age haha

 

Thanks, you're too kind. I'll probably end up being too shy to message you out of nowhere, another big issue of me but maybe i can overcome that. And you can also message me if you ever need someone to talk 

Edited March 18, 2018 by Enki91