fufu 580 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 I want to start by saying i'm not normally someone who'd share this openly, but I suppose that's why it's a problem in that I have nobody to share it with. For the last few weeks i've sort of just been sat here and every day i'm feeling more and more dead inside. This pretty much ties into when my best friends went to university. I'm older by a few years, and some just took gap years, so basically i've ended up alone. I have quite a lot of 'friends' but they aren't people I share any interests with or could even just hang out with for anything random. They all skateboard and frankly I feel like putting a bullet through my head when they skate or talk about skating, which is all they do. But anyway, i'm just here, alone, constantly. I get maybe one day a week where people might come out for a drink or something, but that's not even guaranteed. I have nobody to talk to. I get bored. I think about my life. I realise that i'm so unhappy with so much in this world, and I get sad. And I hate when i'm sad, because rather than crying and getting it out, I go grey and I can't get out of this not showing emotion thing and I sit here stewing until I burst. I used to have someone i'd talk to all day long online, but she turned out to be something of a bitch and obviously couldn't care less, so she's gone too. I was actually happy when I had that. But now I'm sort of stuck. There's no way to meet new people where I live. It's just work, come home, drink, sleep, repeat. I don't really think I have a likeable personality, so I don't have many friends online either. I sort of feel like there's no place for me anywhere. I've lost all motivation in life. I hate doing this. I try so hard to be positive in what I do and who I am, but it's getting too hard to do it. I try so hard to make people happy with themselves, but right now i'm struggling to feel it about myself. Anyway, I just wanted to get that stuff out so I don't overload on negativity and take it out on anyone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Senpie 1,663 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 i want to hug you. Uhm, what kind of activities could you see yourself possibly enjoying/not feel like killing yourself with? Maybe use that to work your way into meeting new people etc? (IRL) Being lonely sucks duck. I agrees. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eternal glow 6,196 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 Come chat with me sis But since you work, don't you make friends with your coworkers? What are your interests? Have you ever thought about joining come kind of club or society about your particular interests? You're sure to find people who you can click with there. If you enjoy sports, you can perhaps join local teams where you can meet new people. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iljin Prince 904 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 You're probably older than me, but even I, as an 18 year old who has a completely identical routine, had a "welcome-to-the-first-day-of- the-rest-of-your-life" realisation the first day I got home after work/uni. It's depressing watching yourself slowly drift from your friends, especially knowing that they're living their lives whilst you're resigned to such a routine but I imposed this on myself, partly as an excuse for having no life since I knew that it was inevitable. I've foregone the flying fletchling freedom of the late teens - early twenties, resigning myself to what I guess is the rare "adult" custom of lunch and dinner meetings with friends. A solemn life, but I've humbled myself to it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EKM 263 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 This made me so sad. Virtual kisses for you . I'm sure you have a nice personality but you are probs too harsh on yourself. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Coordi_Oppa 458 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 awww that's sad, i work in a place far away from my family even that it's easy for me to make friends, i feel lonely most of the time as well. nothing is like family. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SLAY 7,630 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 Oh my god. This is pretty much my life story right now. Idk, I'm just used to it Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
thatsvicchan 3,818 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 I feel you tbh. This April I was sick at the hospital and nobody was there for me, I had to left school and such so I spent really terrible moments. Even in internet, I had a best friend but he turned out to be an idiot and he left as well when I needed the most. I thought the problem was myself indeed but when I realized it isn't so I felt a lot better... You shound't say those words because the problem is not you! You have to be just more secure. I started to go at school again and I am making new friends. I suggest you to go out more... Try to go to the gym and such places, you'll find new friends for sure! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Vaelin 6,957 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 I want to start by saying i'm not normally someone who'd share this openly, but I suppose that's why it's a problem in that I have nobody to share it with. For the last few weeks i've sort of just been sat here and every day i'm feeling more and more dead inside. This pretty much ties into when my best friends went to university. I'm older by a few years, and some just took gap years, so basically i've ended up alone. I have quite a lot of 'friends' but they aren't people I share any interests with or could even just hang out with for anything random. They all skateboard and frankly I feel like putting a bullet through my head when they skate or talk about skating, which is all they do. But anyway, i'm just here, alone, constantly. I get maybe one day a week where people might come out for a drink or something, but that's not even guaranteed. I have nobody to talk to. I get bored. I think about my life. I realise that i'm so unhappy with so much in this world, and I get sad. And I hate when i'm sad, because rather than crying and getting it out, I go grey and I can't get out of this not showing emotion thing and I sit here stewing until I burst. I used to have someone i'd talk to all day long online, but she turned out to be something of a bitch and obviously couldn't care less, so she's gone too. I was actually happy when I had that. But now I'm sort of stuck. There's no way to meet new people where I live. It's just work, come home, drink, sleep, repeat. I don't really think I have a likeable personality, so I don't have many friends online either. I sort of feel like there's no place for me anywhere. I've lost all motivation in life. I hate doing this. I try so hard to be positive in what I do and who I am, but it's getting too hard to do it. I try so hard to make people happy with themselves, but right now i'm struggling to feel it about myself. Anyway, I just wanted to get that stuff out so I don't overload on negativity and take it out on anyone. Well first of all I think you seem like a nice person... so I added you as friend yesterday... I'm just not the kind of person who oftens initiates a chat or anything... but it doesn't mean I wouldn't want to do so.. ;-) And I know your feeling to some extent. Now I work fulltime for an internship and the 2 hour drive everyday and the work hours are not fun. I'm more away than home nowadays and at work are all much older people so it's not like I can make friends.. I sit in an office all day looking at a computer screen and it makes you feel pretty isolated. judging from your pic you seem good looking though so I think many people would be interested in befriending you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ariana Grande 800 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 Pretty much how I ended up feeling after I failed a subject and got put back a year. Now all my close friends are moving on and are so busy. Do you have any hobbies or activities that can help you get this off your mind? I know the feeling sucks. Or as others suggested, maybe take part in more social activities that don't make you feel awkward. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sexica 402 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 I'm kinda in the same situation, so I really understand you and I can relate. I wish I could give you a good advice, but since I have same/similar issues, I don't think I'm qualified for that. Just stay strong and eventually the ugly storm will go away like it was never there(I tried to be poetic, but I failed xD) And there's always someone you can talk to. I'm not much of a help, but you can always send me a PM. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fufu 580 Posted October 6, 2014 Author Share Posted October 6, 2014 i want to hug you. Uhm, what kind of activities could you see yourself possibly enjoying/not feel like killing yourself with? Maybe use that to work your way into meeting new people etc? (IRL) Being lonely sucks duck. I agrees. I used to play a lot of sports, but some idiot crashed his car into mine two years ago and now I basically live my life with permanent back pain so sports are sort of out of the question as far as clubs or things go -__- also based on my location, i'm sort of in a town/area that's trapped in the 1980s in terms of interests and hobbies and stuff. Nothing appeals to me. Come chat with me sis But since you work, don't you make friends with your coworkers? What are your interests? Have you ever thought about joining come kind of club or society about your particular interests? You're sure to find people who you can click with there. If you enjoy sports, you can perhaps join local teams where you can meet new people. I quit my job a few weeks ago because it was making me hate life. That sort of perked me up a bit for a while, but now i'm getting disheartened looking for another job. Their really aren't any clubs around here, which stinks. Sports (as mentioned above) is unlikely until I can fully rehab. Well first of all I think you seem like a nice person... so I added you as friend yesterday... I'm just not the kind of person who oftens initiates a chat or anything... but it doesn't mean I wouldn't want to do so.. ;-) And I know your feeling to some extent. Now I work fulltime for an internship and the 2 hour drive everyday and the work hours are not fun. I'm more away than home nowadays and at work are all much older people so it's not like I can make friends.. I sit in an office all day looking at a computer screen and it makes you feel pretty isolated. judging from your pic you seem good looking though so I think many people would be interested in befriending you. Thanks for the nice words. My job was pretty much what you described, except imo I was doing something negative to this world by doing it, so I had to stop. To everyone else, thank you, I appreciate it a lot. And tbh I don't know how to start PMs without feeling awkward. I wish I could slap my brain. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chrome 3,157 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 You're probably older than me, but even I, as an 18 year old who has a completely identical routine, had a "welcome-to-the-first-day-of- the-rest-of-your-life" realisation the first day I got home after work/uni. It's depressing watching yourself slowly drift from your friends, especially knowing that they're living their lives whilst you're resigned to such a routine but I imposed this on myself, partly as an excuse for having no life since I knew that it was inevitable. I've foregone the flying fletchling freedom of the late teens - early twenties, resigning myself to what I guess is the rare "adult" custom of lunch and dinner meetings with friends. A solemn life, but I've humbled myself to it. this is why im kind of reluctant to 'grow up' even though i have no control over it im graduating high school this november and im not keen for the transition in my life to 9-5 routine jobs Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Suzuran 353 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 I'm sorry for your situation, unfortunetly I think many people go through this. I feel pretty lonely sometimes too but not for the lack of friends, I have many good friends that I would trust with my life, but rather the fact that not many share the same interests as me. Personally I'm planning on leaving for Asia next year, to study in Japan and make some friends. Mabye you wanna do something like that? Also does people still skate these days? I didn't know that was still a "thing". Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fufu 580 Posted October 6, 2014 Author Share Posted October 6, 2014 I'm sorry for your situation, unfortunetly I think many people go through this. I feel pretty lonely sometimes too but not for the lack of friends, I have many good friends that I would trust with my life, but rather the fact that not many share the same interests as me. Personally I'm planning on leaving for Asia next year, to study in Japan and make some friends. Mabye you wanna do something like that? Also does people still skate these days? I didn't know that was still a "thing". My 'plan' was to work for a year or so and then go and do some overseas teaching (hopefully in Korea, or Japan). I have the qualifications to do it, but I want to learn one of the languages first and make the money so i'm not 100% dependent on what i'd earn there. Although right now i'm doubting that can happen. And yeah, people still skate. I think a lot of them are in denial about growing up though, at least the ones my age. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Senpie 1,663 Posted October 6, 2014 Share Posted October 6, 2014 I used to play a lot of sports, but some idiot crashed his car into mine two years ago and now I basically live my life with permanent back pain so sports are sort of out of the question as far as clubs or things go -__- also based on my location, i'm sort of in a town/area that's trapped in the 1980s in terms of interests and hobbies and stuff. Nothing appeals to me. I quit my job a few weeks ago because it was making me hate life. That sort of perked me up a bit for a while, but now i'm getting disheartened looking for another job. Their really aren't any clubs around here, which stinks. Sports (as mentioned above) is unlikely until I can fully rehab. To everyone else, thank you, I appreciate it a lot. And tbh I don't know how to start PMs without feeling awkward. I wish I could slap my brain. Asssssshole. :( How about volunteering? Or pubs? I suck at starting PMs too. So i hardly ever. I'll try one with you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lumingi 47 Posted October 23, 2014 Share Posted October 23, 2014 You're not alone..I agree with you on this.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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