Ok I've been extremely depressed over this and I honestly don't know what do to at this point

[palechibi]

I've been getting depressed lately because that feeling of not fitting in is hitting me again (i went through it in my early teens it started from being badly bullied in grade school because i was a chubby kid and being teased and etc for liking anime and stuff i have bad depression  & anxiety was at the doctor all the time my mom had to take me out of school in grade 10 because it just kept getting worse) . I never felt like i belonged here (where im from and grow up) i dont have one friend who shares the same interests as me like I honestly feel lonely a lot. Its not like people  around me help every time i meet new people they automatically assume im a foreigner and when its brought up in a conversation and i mention im actually from here and etc they act all surprised like???? I already met almost everyone on this damn island everyone here knows me i just can't remember half of them so I've honestly given up at this point hence why i feel so god damn lonely.My family hardly shares the same interests as me the only one in my family who comes close to is my cousin shes like my saving grace imo.

 

I thought i'd be getting off this island next year for university but now since my brother's uni costs my parents like over 60,000+ i have to wait another year. I understand its just the thought of being stuck here for another year depresses me even more how am i suppose deal with this shit for another year? isn't 6/7 years enough? i can't take this ignorant closed minded place anymore. I feel pathetic for letting loneliness and bullying and all that crap affect me like this but it has and i can't keep denying it anymore.

 

 

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thank you for the advice ;-;

[SlayingSeohyun]

Distract yourself from how crappy life, in general, is.

[Jela]

One year will pass quickly don't worry.

In the meantime don't pay attention to other people you don't like and try to focus on the good things.

 

If you feel lonely and you don't have anyone to talk to, at least you have OneHallyu. there are plenty of people in here who like the same things you do and I'm sure they would gladly speak with you. 

[fiestargossip]

Are you totally sure you know every single person on the island? I made some good friends at high school but I made even better friends while out enjoying my hobbies. Have you tried joining clubs and stuff like that which you are interested in?

[iv7]

Quit thinking about it.

 

My uncle's son spent 5 years running 10 miles a day so he went from overweight to skinny. All this happened because at 14 years old he was sitting on the bus and suddenly a middle aged woman who wanted the seat yelled, "Get the fuck out of the way you fat ass bitch" in Chinese and it scarred him for years. He never recovered and I remember him crying a ton in high school during gym class nearly every day.

 

Though he's now skinny, he doesn't seem happier.

 

Find what you love and enjoy and embrace it. Don't keep thinking you have to change because thinking this way is what is making you more depressed.

[osmdomo]

I've been bullied while I was a young girl, just for the simple fact that I was Asian, I would get stuff thrown at me, things dropped on me, & people would just laugh. I did become very depressed.. But, What did I do? I simply ignored them. At that point I really didn't care what people thought of me. During this year of high school, I actually became friends with my sister's BF. He is like a brother to me! So you just have to wait till the right time. Who cares about what people think about you? Because in the future, they aren't going to mean nothing to you.

[Rapmon's Ahjussi Husband]

Focus on getting skinnier, ... and plan your revenge ; I mean revenge on looking good and being popular, don't go crazy over the revenge thingy

[sane]

Luckily you have the internet, so you can find other people like you who you can get along with in the meantime 

[B612]

People don't understand me and it sucks so I can understand what you are feeling but you have to be happy being alone, find a way to enjoy your own company. I do it tbh. It works for me.

[TMI]

I'd say find a hobby or try something that you've always wanted to do before but never got the chance.

[Ferris Bueller]

 

 

Its not like people  around me help every time i meet new people they automatically assume im a foreigner and when its brought up in a conversation and i mention im actually from here and etc they act all surprised like????

 

1. Are you being racially bullied? Next time someone does that to you, kick them in the teeth.

2. Why are you being yourself in school? Nobody does that. Your peers don't need to know that you like anime or whatever.

3. It's easy to fall into the trap of getting down on yourself but if you're certain that you're not doing anything wrong and people still hate you for stupid reasons, it's because you're better than them. Not the other way around. You're interpreting it the wrong way.

 

 

All this happened because at 14 years old he was sitting on the bus and suddenly a middle aged woman who wanted the seat yelled, "Get the fuck out of the way you fat ass bitch" in Chinese

 

lmao

[Darlie]

It will be much much easier for you to not care about these things and distract yourself with what you sincerely enjoy. Find new interests and hobbies and try them out. Happiness is a choice, try to look at the positive side of everything. There are people that make our lifes seem like crap so the best thing to do is ignore them. 

[wonder woman]

Girl, are you me? I've been in the exact same place before and I can assure you, things do get better. I know sometimes it's hard to live in a place where you simply don't fit in, not having friends who share the same interests and all; but that's how life is. Is it fair? Well, no, it's not. But hang in there, 'cause being depressed about it doesn't help.

Just try to feel comfortable in your own skin. You like the things you like and you are the way you are, and that's fine. No need to please other people. I'm sorry you were bullied, I know that's something awful to go through but the best thing you can do it's to move on ^^ Easier to say than do, but it's worth the try.

Finding people on the Internet to talk about the things you like is also a good thing, and at least that's what I do. I really hope things get better for you <3

[Lynnie]

Stay strong! I'm rooting for you! 

[xxxnamie]

Cheer up a bit    A year may seem like a long time, but time goes by fast without us even really realizing it.

 

I knew a few people who, like you, were also looking forward to moving away from home and going away to college does provide that opportunity...it must have felt horrible to have that taken from you.   My best advice is to get a hobby to find people with similar interests or volunteer to pass the time 

 

I hope everything works out for you.

[Miss Fei]

depression is hard to overcome, but you know what???? you are hella

and you CAN because you are hella, and you are hella because you can beat depression like a pro.

you waited 7 years of that crap already, 1 year is nothing because you are a badass.

you have onehallyu right now to talk about your interests and a bright future waiting for you.

• any day can be THE DAY, if you want to, don't be afraid to express yourself and do what you want.
• people will judge you always, pleasing them is not your obligation.
• the only thing that matters in this life is what you think of yourself, so try to stop thinking poorly of yourself.

for example believe it or not exercise helped me, but idk if that would work for you.

 

I'll share my experience: i know how it feels that not belonging situation i lived in more than one country and i am foreign even in my "own country". People think my life is interesting but for me everywhere is the same, my religion helped me in that case, but i am not here to force my religion down your throat or to make this about me, the reason i am opening up is to tell you that: you are not alone.

 

don't the smarter people are surrounded by negative feelings.

chu~~~~~

*virtual hug*

[sexica]

Stay strong and try to look at it from a positive point of view. I know it's difficult, but it will get better, I'm sure of it.

 

I'm repeating a year at uni, so I'm also very depressed and frustrated, but I'm trying to be positive.

 

Here's a song for you ^^

http://www.jpopsuki.tv/video/Utada-Hikaru---time-will-tell/3ef94ef1525e9102a60ef9bab8633054

[Darling]

The biggest indication for being in the state of depression is when the victim would rather wallow in self-pity than realize there's nothing wrong with themselves.

[Seulchu]

Can you work in another country as a au pair girl for a year?

Or doing a volountary work somewhere else?

 

Good luck

[Blinket]

Can you maybe become an exchange student for a year?

Or take a year off?

Just focus on yourself and getting better this year. Take it as an opportunity to change yourself and your thoughts about yourself.

 

If you need to talk, just send me a message btw

[Psy]

It will be much much easier for you to not care about these things and distract yourself with what you sincerely enjoy. Find new interests and hobbies and try them out. Happiness is a choice, try to look at the positive side of everything. There are people that make our lifes seem like crap so the best thing to do is ignore them.

I agree with this, but I have to add that even though things can appear bad on the outside, it is only you who can make yourself feel truly miserable. You belittle yourself too much because no one clicks with you. So what? Find what you like. Be proud of it. Excel in something that brings out your passion. You don't know what it is? Start searching by trying out things you've never done before. Take the one-year left as time to focus on your own personal development, and do it with the intent of making the most to get yourself ready for the big change waiting for you next year.

 

Good luck, and enjoy!