SuJulove

I need to believe in my abilities and be kinder to myself.

I like this forum, so many topics to write about. Better than some.

I suffer from Anxiety, Social Anxiety, Depression and OCD. I have been seeing a Counsellor for 6 months and she is helping, but I constantly have negative thoughts which are sabotaging her good work. I have been through "hell" the past couple of years and all my issues have been caused for me not by me. I'm not taking any medication because of the side effects. One I was on last year - Zoloft caused me to have suicidal thoughts. My anxiety is debilitating and effects everything I do. I don't tend to suffer Depression too much now but have since my 20's. I had my first suicide attempt at 25. I don't cut or self harm - never done that. I don't use drugs or alcohol to cope either. People can be so ignorant when it comes to mental health issues, they just don't understand or think you are weird. I think there needs to be more awareness of these issues and more support.

I have a partner who I have been with for 15 years (known each other for 18 years) and have a 14 year old daughter together. We have had our ups and downs and are poles apart, but he is a support for me when the chips are down.

I have been left school 30 years today. Makes me feel old.

I love the handwritten letter Donghae wrote for the fans for his Birthday. It really seems like he is enjoying military life and is getting more and more handsome with each passing year. I can't believe he is 30 now, still adorable. I miss him so much and can't wait till his time is up and he is back with the boys again. Also with Eunhyuk writing more songs. I miss you Fishy.

Thank you, I hope to visit this thread a lot. Hi to all fellow ELFS!

Happy Birthday to Donghae. He is my ultimate bias. Hope he has a great day. It's also been a year since he enlisted. It has gone so fast, only 9 months to go. We love him here in Australia, and hope he can visit us one day. Love you Fishy!

I'd like to have a rant about a certain real estate agent in town. I applied for a rental property, was approved then at the 11th hour was ditched by the owner for another applicant who they approved the very day I was to pay my holding deposit. I was told by the Property  Manager to pay the holding deposit online but as an older person, I am not familiar with online transfer. She said I could pay cash at the office which I was about to do, but I when I showed up she was out of the office then told by the receptionist that owner had approved  somebody else. I feel like they used me and didn't care of my situation. I have been trying to get a house for ages now and I was deeply upset and angry. Every time I apply for a place, something happens. I've already been very badly treated by one agent now another. I won't be applying with them again