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  1. Honestly why care about that in specific if she still got decent line tho . Honestly the less rap in kpop the better. Esp if it's by singer who is fine/better singer but is rapping cuz it's needed, not what they trying to pursue or interested in. And not even writing their lines, I'm used to not all singer being singer-songwriter (tho most of what I listen to is that indie stuff) but rappers not writing their verses still a bit off to me. Like it's hard to take the rapping as genuine. Admittedly tho my favorite BP song is lovesick girls and the Lisa and Jennie rap back to back is my favorite part of the song. On rare chance raps fits in the song even when they don't write it,but very rare tbh  I think most kpop songs should be better without rap parts so I could not imagine being mad about someone not getting rap lines when they're still singing lines

  2. Yeah it's weird thing to ask ig like fans I get the stress but it's a bit too emotionally involved?lack of better word, like it's caring too much and I don't mean to insult fans for caring too much cuz I been at that spot but it's learning experience tbh. Just have to learn, don't be over involved in it. Like ofc you wanna know if your separated faves who had bond you like before,still friend, but you gotta let them live their life rather than inquire bc ppl over focused on their bond is kind of thing that can ruin the bonds

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  3. yeah, i have ocd.

    i have other issues, incl anxiety/depression, but id say ocd is what mostly impacts my daily life (+avpd, but i dont think its one ppl define as ND. its extreme extreme annxiety tho). also never been diagnosed and have not really interest in figuring out at 25 years old hhh but i found out years ago, aspergers& epilepsy is linked to a chromosome deletion that both my cousins on my moms side have (epilepsy) , 1/2 my sister has it, but nothig diagnosed, and my brother has aspergers. i wonder if me and my other sister has it. and i have ,, idk how to explain it correctly, but both me and my brother have bad irritability and obsessional neatness with certain things (i dont know how to say in pc way, basically to most people, we are 'weird' and not normal ig), so makes me think, do we have overlap in aspergers/ocd, with one un-diagnosed, or is there just much similarity with the two with those things i dunno.

  4. I've been obsessed with this album since it came out in April iirc?

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    I love all the songs.  And going into it I never expected it. Cuz I was anticipating but I only heard 2 songs from her before. Idk it's just like heart wrenching break up concept album, that made me realize how much I'm interested in heartbreak albums even tho most concept albums or modern ones are called that but I feel is just extra description. The video helping with this I think . I think all the songs you can connect for the most part (one of the v songs is about her late dad,I'd say all but that one prolly) and I think they all appear in the 'film' even in snippets that really piece it tgt.its cool, also relatable for me. I think at least 75% ofv the songs from this album,is on moody Playlist I've made recently

    Other albums to mention that i listen to almost as often is fka twigs &big thiefs album from this year. And there's an artist I discover like in 2 months ago and it was like her first solo song, and I got obsessed with the song. I never heard of the 2 groups she was in before solo but I have interest now. And she put out a second song recently and just as hooked on it

     

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  5. I got 28 or 29 lost count tbh, but I counted a handful of foods I like but have to avoid bc high fodmap, they make me sick, can't fully digest them basically.tho I did count as liking a few high fodmap fruits bc those don't give me issues,the veggies tho..1000% issues. It would prolly be half that just counting what I dislike/ never had

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  6. It's pretty well rounded excercise.. average person can do it better than most other typical exercise ,also for more athletic person can add resistance to make it beneficial for them too. I mean like good for fit ppl in that way,but I feel like other beginner exercise fit ppl will add resistance too,is not really appealing to beginner,especially those who want to exercise but aren't immediately jumping into the typical thought of,heavy excercise. It's low impact but effective 

  7. reading the article mention calamari and tbh i was thinkng of calamari when i see this pic. it is prolly my fav food or one of them. also thought of alligator. my aunt made me get alligator when i visit ha in FL, she does it to all visitors but it legit is good. practically chicken nugget. but everyone she asks is just like "no fking way" so it just looks weird, sound weird. but prolly tastes great, i mean if you like fried chicken which i do

  8. goodday is such a cursed group omg

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    i think a character in the GDCU can be the failed debut dayday group, with  p101 suhyun and a member of the ark?, and  pre-pre debut included p101 haein and hyewon !! before they left company im assuming before they announce dayday. god this goes deep. i rmr thinking before when goodday->cignature. reminds me of suhyun failed group. similar name. cursed names

     

  9. i mean no, i am bit jaded/biased in that way tho. cuz ive been burnt so many times of people (ex friends) being so into male fanservice, but is a lesbophobe thinking we'd be into them, no girl we still have standards tbh. and i think this is as prevalent as the typical homophobia of hags/biblethumper.. bigot at one side, and objectifying other. being a bit extra but what i mean, its so unnecessary and unneeded to me, and uncomfortable with it knowing how into it and objectifying people can be with it (who are also homophobe). even if not tho. the objectifying is icky to me. like they can have skinship if thats normal for them. ig its more the fan reaction that bothers me. but i do feel like companies(management? idk right word for it) push the fanservice a bit far than necessary too

  10. bro this coworker i got..we used to be friends ig? i mean we had lunch together with like 2 guys and another girl. but shes a bit of a hag and the guys also get on my nerves as well. but im cool with the other girl still. for months now its just been thing after thing with her. but im the only one who gets in 'trouble' for it. (read: lectured by managers, not written up tho that i know of..) even if im not in the wrong. i guess i can be at times. but even if im not , and i exp with other ppl in past to. i dont say shit. then they complain and call me.. agressive ! and stuff like that. like they arent way bitchier than me. tho thats a bias take perhaps. dude tho like dont get on my nerves, and ill be nice to you. im just not a forgiver of ppl who dont deserve it. maybe its stubborn of me. but ive done it too many times in past of 'forgive and forget' of ppl who dont deserve it. incl with this hag. first few things that we had tension. i get over it. but ever since a few months ago. i swear this btch has no seniority over me, but likes to act like it. not even mentioning i work x2 the hours of her? not including the regular overtime and doubles i work. she has such a power trip which annoys me. we used to have same job always (packing order, in walk in fridge) but may 2021 they opened a new warehouse nearby so a bunch of ppl got relocated to that. including 1/2 assistant manager ? (theres another word we use for it, but its nonsense to ppl who havent worked in warehouse n know the terms so yup, its prolly the equivalent in other jobs) and the other manages stuff on the computer and watches over ppl that way. the other is more on the floor. and mon-thur, theres another lady who picked up that job. but this hag i dont like covers on her break, and on fridays.

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    and i swear she is barely off her regular job, same i used to do too, but she is so dogshit at it now it annoys me but thats just me being bitchy. everytime, she comes out the fridge with her stuff barely packed and pulls to the side to fix it, ur supposed to just organize right as you go. and ngl, on the one day of the week i stil do that (sundays) im not the best. some days im pretty shit at it ngl... but more times than not im still doing it right. when im shit its usually the times i work saturday night, bc every other day i work (everyday, except tues, incl the next morning after saturday) and some times i get stuck there overtime to 3-4am. anw, when i stopped doing that job was in jan~feb when like within a month 3/5 regular guys tht work outside loading the trucks quit. and at first they had other ppl doing it , not me. (the 2 guys i used to lunch w/, actually) and that annoyed me cuz im better than them. and they race eachother when packing order in the fridge, ngl psychotic and annoying. they also speed thru when loading outside too. like thats why i hate being around them. i do it fine by myself and they get annoyed when they do it wrong so i fix ... like i have such bad ocd, ik its annoying but like just do it right ?? tues, my day off. is usually when i order my grocery, and i order from where i work hhh girl im always getting broken shit. and i get the money back its fine but its such insane stuff like, some things are broken all the time like eggs, but i had a whole bag of stuff ruined bc they were so rough with it, i ordered a can of monster and it got a microscopic hole in it and got everything in bag ruined. and ik at least 1 of these guys has to work outside on tues bc someone has to load the trucks (i legit load all of them every other weekday) and i just know it was one of their fault when i get something broken so hard so break hhh. point is ig, i work that job wayyyyy less than this woman, but she is still so bad at it. lowkey...i feel like its on purpose cuz she wants to not do it. but girl, its your job . just get used to it. cuz ngl, when i was annoyed i didnt get moved outside at first, i was organizing pretty shit cuz i couldnt care. but there legit nothing useful for this girl to be moved to you know? and she gets away with barely doing shit when shes supposed to cuz shes such buddy buddy with the assist. manager on the floor. oh god, and sometimes when ppl package so bad, we need to add extra container, which is a pain at times for me. and on god, anytime she had order that goes thru all aisle, which is at least half prolly? she needs to make new one. i swear just wasting time, cuz she is shit at organizing. on purpose i bet to do that. legit, so many ppl bad at it as well which is a pain for me. bc ppl will have their container barely closable.  and i am not here for stacks of container almost falling over on me when i go to load. it has happened countless amounts of times. and its insane to me cuz literally not thathard ??? its just 3d tetris tbh

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    i forget the first major issue i had with her was, but i gotover it. but ever since the next time which was prolly few weeks later - been months since then by now tho. but, there was a truck we couldnt use, broken,, so we had to wait to be able to put things in it, so i lined it up in a spot inside, by the wall near door and such, where we usually put it if everything doesnt fit (until loading it). next truck pulls in on the other side of outside and she puts some stuff there like we putting it there, when i have everything on floor far ways away, and i did that cuz there wasnt much. but my hands at the time had cuts in the inner knuckle of the fingers. my ass is not dragging it to the other side if not necessary. which it wasnt. when im like okay no we waiting for a truck on the other side. she gets so pissed at me she throws something at me. and did i ever go to manager about it? fk no. like not like it hurt, it was a 12 pack of paper towel or sumn hhh but its so bitchy. her ass would of fake an injury to get me suspended if tables turned i bet. thats so extreme and moreso joking tbh, but waht i mean is, shes run to manager and got me scolded, yell at me. for such smaller things. now, thats bad enough . i say some things offhand about how extra it is so the other ppl outside and she overhears, come over to me and starts yelling at me to say sht to her face. im 100% done with her since this day. like btch you throwing shit at me and im supposed to sit there and take it. anyway. im pretty sure ive ranted about these and other things since before but just saying you know. i hate ha since.

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    BUT. wednesday. im sitting at a spot i do often, and sometimes, i leave my phone there, its just sitting on a milk crate by the door when im waiting for sumn to do for a few mins, and ive done this, dozen, maybe dozens of times that ive left my phone on the crate if im not going too far away, and nothing happen. i usually do it if my shorts/pocket uncomfortable. usually one of my DIY shorts where ive cut pants into shorts before realizing the pockets a bit too big for shorts that length. but theyre comfy phone out and its like fuck. its a milk crate. not even a foot tall.. my phone can drop but wont break too bad if so? and ive left other things on there like my water bottle (cirkul tbh) and keys and theyve fallen to ground occasionally. it annoys me. but its fine. the other lady, who works mon-thur only can do it occasionally. but get this. i saw her push sumn into the crate, and she was like huh and went around it. this hag? she will just push and push until she pushed through whatever it was. heres an idea...pull it instead of push so you see where ur going, so you dont hit sumn, someone. legit. like its not like 1 off thing i did. its kinda my spot. i sit there alll the time. theres like no way my phone just fell onto the ground off my crate, she either pushed into so hardly, that it slammed off, and or, it just fell and she ran it over after. like idg why they push either. like when im bringing stuff outside, is always pulling so i see where im going, not really its just what ive always done. also makes more sense to me. i am still like i shouldnt have done that. youknow. and i do like the lady who works mon-thurs. even if shes a pusher, she not needlessly rough about it, she not dumb, thoughtless about it, see what its her way instead of just trying to smash it out of the way. if it was anyone else, i would take blame fully or more so at least. but because this lady is so annoying i wanna mostly blame her. and ngl, as if i couldnt dislike ha more hhh. so ive been done done done with her since. like i dont ever wanna talk to ha again regardless how many times she tries to make convo with me (everyday) and she is just bothering me more, like girl bc of you, and partly me, but mostly you being too rough, an 800$ dollar phone i only bought 1.5 year ago, broken. unusable. its by grace of god, i didnt upgrade to s22 ultra as i planned this year. but fuck. now im downgrading bc i dont wanna spent 800-1000 on a new phone. im new credit user so i cant get approved on monthly pay over a year or few. not dropping that much at once rn. so i just bought renewed note 10+. even if its 3 year old. did want to try the note-like ultra. and note20 was prolly still too much to me prolly 500ish.. it is renewed. so hopefully at least lasts what left of like s21 would of lasted. a year or 2 more then hoepfully ill have enough credit history for a monthly pay. and i still dont have the phone .. not arriving til monday. and i just have a cassette player and only have 1 tape (two ribbons by lets eat grandma hhh) love the album but im getting tired of it ugh i keep telling myself. i need the sound and just have to endure a few more days of the same thing . i miss spotify 💔 i miss a phone 💔 my player has radio but i can never get it to not go to static everytime i move at work. oddly. it works fine when i bike there. so yeah. fuck ha for that (and fuck myself..my mistake...) her roughly pushing stuff around is like more aggressive than what shes got me in trouble for being "agressive" w/.

    but she was annoying the hell out of me on friday too. legit let me say, there 16 truck on friday. i check eevrything in, 14 of them. i load, 14 of them. and one of the ones i didnt check, there was missing container in, the guy that checked couldnt find, so they redid it. but she went in after to look for it and found it on wrong spot. but i did load the truck tho and she comes to me during like "this was in there" and wat do u want me to do about it i-?? i didnt put it in wrong spot, was busy loading every truck before. wasnt me who check it. like yup i do most but dont come yelling at me about shit i do. and noteven hating the guy who make the mistake. i bet this chick makes same mistakes all the time. fuck, so do i occasionally. but dont come yelling at me for shit i didnt do, not that im hating on who did it. but im sick of her power trips when she has 0 seniority, superioity, theres just no one else to do it on that day - and i do exponetinally more work. she also was like "hey!" at me when i was done with it, bc i was trying to strap it down and it slips out, as it does sometimes and the strap makes this loud clank sound, so she yell that at me cuz she was nearby. and after she just yelled at me minutes before. i was so pissed. like yelling at me twice within minutes on nothing. id like to see her lazy ass do the work i do. im legit so annoyed of her ass acting like she is the boss when shes not. like she does so much when she does next to nothing. ughhh

    i came here expecting maybe a paragraph rant, a paragraph for me, run on...but prolly only 1/3 that i typed. to not be too annoying, since i rant about a few of these situations before.i put long segments in spoiler. their own spoilers. bc i still need this feeling out but fuck i went on about it. i really do not like this lady. again im done talking to her even if i barely did for months despite her always trying to talk to me. i do an "okay" at most if she insists an answer. but im done even with that im realzing, ngl i did give her an "okay" tho friday iirc. no more.

  11. ive really rarely gone on vacation tbh, so im thinking more of vacation, as in time off responsibility, not going somewhere per se

    if im in school...my ass is sleeping on breaks

    at work... i only vacation if im going somewhere tbh. last time i vacation to just do nothing at home was early 2020, and i request it before lockdown, in march, like take my bday week off in april, but then lockdown is fully on and its just boring and depressing as shit. lowkey like its worth. like paid for working as usual then getting those unused personal, sick and vacation days paid out at end of the year. like getting 2 massive checks. the usual + unused time, for christmas hhh

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    if i do go somewhere. i think have to make it worth. go to places. do things i dont usually do. lowkey craving beach rn tho i nevr cba to go to coast bc id have to bike like over an hour or go with someone, 30 min drive. not bad but idk who i'd go with. i am going to hotel a few states away for my cousins wedding in a month tho. i will be spending time at pool. not swimming cuz i cant. i used to, but then i almost drowned so we dont do it anymore. id kill for relaxing in cool shallow water..not too long tho, bc they also have gym and library and lake and tennis and golf. its cool.. pool. i can get that in town or any other hotel. and prolly more crowded than any of the other places i mentioned. yuck

    i am excited tho at idea of ill have my own hotel room. i will be living it up in there but prolly still make use of the things to do there?

  12. atm im feeling any other than summer cuz the clothes restriction and bugs is killin me rn. i like more of a spring/fall where i can dress light or heavy and the extra layer wont be killing me like in summer..or winter where i have to dress like 3 layers. i was living for summer at first shorts and no sleeve everyday. but im so over it. and biking to commute, its a relief i havent had heat exhaustion as i did before, prolly thanks to working outside now instead of in... im not cold with what i wear. but i am drenched in sweat anyway

  13. id go back to a few hours ago when i broke my phone 💔 actually its like partly my fault for leaving it somewhere (this place i sit for a few mins when theres nothing to do). but i always do that and nothing happen. my coworker wasnt looking and slammmmed sumn into it. but im mostly phrasing it as my fault to not be a bitch when telling it to ppl. esp ppl who know her. bc i do know who did it. im not gonna confront or anything.

    secondarily... kinda see this as biggest regret ive had. id go back and not ghost my ex. which i sort of didnt. but i think thats how she sees it. i just gave up on it, and was too long time passed before i realized its a mistake

  14. Guys not shaving their pits is normal tho no? I mean I don't keep track but even for years where idols always been looking pretty still had pit hair. I've been shaving my pits atm bc I'm usually wearing sleeveless shirts cuz of the heat. But in winter and such, no shot I'm wasting my time shaving 😂 and there's been times I've seen ppl like posting pics of male idols like saying how hot their pit hair and I'm like, shit I have more armpit hair than them rn hhh. I'd say these pics along that level. 

    Odd for me cuz I think in west, guys will be judged if they shave pits, arm legs. But girls are expected to. I guess I come out lucky in some way bc I grew up with chicken skin. It eventually mostly has faded finally once I become adult. But I noticed sumn, as it faded, I no longer grow back hair in most of my arms/legs where I had this rash, in fact only parts I can see hair on my arms legs is where it hasn't fade yet. Lowkey wonder if I shave there if it'll grow back bc I've had hair spots that hasn't grown back in give or take 5 years.. Gonna try it tbh.

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    But it's dumb anyway like the hairs is barely visible. And having hair doesn't make you dirty i- I get a clean shaven preference but being grossed out by it is dumb af. I do prefer the look on myself tho. I just never shave my few arm leg hair bc it's barely visible anw, also with chicken skin, it's exponentially more likely to cut myself whilst shaving, with protruding spots all over - I never shaved as teen cuz of this. I wish I was able to magically not grow back hair on face like peach fuzz and between eyebrows cuz those annoying for me. Pits is an easy shave but id love not having to do it ngl. Not doing it is only worth judging if you have bad BO.

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    (ramble you really shouldn't read but I went on too long and fully stand by what I believe) 

    ngl, I like my natural BO. And I feel like that may be weird to say? Hhh but you know what I mean? Like stuff like when you like your s/ó smell? I've def had that before with exes Not just their perfume or something. I wear some sometimes but it's not worth atm bc in these days humidity my BO will just overpower it. But it's not a bad smell? If you clean yourself I feel like you didn't stink with ur BO. I'm rambling about this for no reason it's just sumn recently discovered. I def didn't always like my smell in my depression phases as teenager where I didn't c lean myself enough. So I really can't imagine someone smelling that bad they need to shave, they prolly need to just have a shower. And wear deodorant. Am I just exposing myself for being weird? But I'm serious someone has to agree with me or try it. Like I exclusive wear sports bras bc I dunno my bra size bc my weight fluctuate too much as a teen due to eating disorder - so most girls prolly don't have such a warm? Bra as I do unless in their exercise fit. But it is a comforting warmth/smell to me. I don't imagine going back to real bras. 

     

    Ilbut yeah if they don't like it they can really just not judge what others look like with their body and not look at it. Not like they're showing it off or sumn hhh

  15. That's nice but I hope this is completely true

    I wonder the % of domestic fans cuz I wouldn't be able to tell. I forgot how I got there but at one point I was browsing on twt and prolly just looking up sumn from the group bc am chaewon and Sakura fan ofc, but come across a thread of ppl defending garam and etc. And I'm just like yuck. The fact she has defenders still. I hope at least most of the fans of the groups are done with her domestically and international. But sad thing is hybe isn't budging so after some time, when she is active again I feel like most fans get used to it and welcome ha back. Maybe won't like her, but won't be actively against it as enough time to bury it ig

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    Ew I just had a thought too. I play rhythm hive, for just txt really. But I'd play LS if they add them. And I am horrified at the thot of having garam cards 🙄

     

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