I am not sure if I considered myself lesbian or I don't know a lot of terms about lgbt but I am aware of it that they are different types of it. It's hard for me to have discussion to people who are close to me. I am afraid of their opinion and judgement.
I am sexually attracted to pretty girls but in my heart if I saw a handsome guy I fall in love. Which even confuse even more about myself. I wish I have someone in real life to talk about sexuality. I just can't find who to trust and have open-mind to talk about it. To the point i am scared of myself.