Sooyoung's Wife

jesus all the cuts are so fast it's hurting my eyes

the real tea

ok

kpop has felt dry since 2015

Halloween pretty much every year. It's my favorite holiday but ever since high school every year is a let down. I always plan to dress up and try to find something to do but I never end up doing either. This year was the first in a while I got festive and decorated, dressed up (sort of), and went to a Halloween party, which wasn't as exciting as I hoped since there was no alcohol and the people there were from my youth group so... it didn't exactly get wild. But it was still fun. I've just accepted holidays and festivities are lost on me now as an adult.

best: 2010 worst: 2014/2019

Most popular kids at my high school were the dumbass douchey class clowns

I haven't heard of any of these songs

I don't get paid until next week and I'm spending Sunday going to events that will cost me a lot of money sigh

this world makes me wanna die

This sounds a lot like me when I was in my first year of college, I got super into video games and it would pretty much be the only thing I did since I had moved to a different city and had no friends. After a year I started losing interest and only recently did I start getting back into it after I bought a Switch Lite.

I've developed an obsession for pin collecting which is... very expensive, so now I've put a pin ban on myself until I have more money. I've also gotten a little bit back into digital painting but I'll probably lose interest again soon. Also been getting more into skincare which is also really expensive, so I try not to buy much.

I like it

lucky

He wasn't reading, in the video someone was talking to him and brought that up. Was gonna say he could've just not acknowledged the comment and moved on, but then I watched the video and someone actually said that to him. A big yikes. I think that probably was the best response he could've given in that case.

Actively following an artist, taking part in the fandom and interacting with other stans, buying albums/merch, watching their vids, etc. Yes, I really did stan 40 artists... plus many other artists I considered myself a casual fan of. In high school I was also a lowkey koreaboo and I was at a super low point in my life, so I relied heavily on these idols for escapism. The worse my depression got, the more I fell into fandom life. I finally realized how unhealthy and obsessive I was and took a much needed break from it all when I had to focus on other stuff in my life as I was transitioning to college, new adult life, a new setting, etc. Honestly only stanning a couple artists now is so much better. Besides interacting with other armys and sones, I feel very disconnected with the kpop world. I learned to cope in healthy ways and prioritize myself rather than put these idols on a pedestal and depend all my happiness on them. That wasn't fair to them, either. So, yeah, in a way my life was hell lmao.

In high school I used to stan 40+ artists, then when I went to college I took a break from kpop and unstanned everyone except snsd and bts.

TODRICK NOOOO I TRUSTED YOU

I think it's pretty natural to take interest in something your friend is passionate about, especially if they make their business/life about it. It doesn't surprise me that Shane is suddenly into makeup when Jeffree Star is his close friend, maybe he had been thinking about getting into makeup for a long time prior to the doc but didn't know what to do with it until he got the idea for the doc. It does seem a little forced, though, because he thrust himself into makeup and this collab happened so quickly after, which makes it seem a little disingenuous compared to someone like a beauty guru who's been passionate about makeup for years and can form that trust between them and the consumer. Jeffree just handed him a color palette and Shane picked out pretty colors then picked the names off the top of his head—it didn't seem like he already had a clear vision for the palette/makeup line without Jeffree's help, which makes this whole collab feel less passionate. I like Shane and Jeffree but if I don't like the makeup I'm not gonna buy it. The palette looks okay but I'd need proper swatches to decide. I don't find the shade names endearing though, if anything they're more of a turn off like "Tanacon", "Trisha", "Cheetoh Dust". Gross. The lipsticks/lip gloss are unappealing to me so I know I won't be buying those. Overall, I think it's an okay collab but it's not going to break the makeup world like they're saying. I don't think Shane's doing this solely for the money but rather because of genuine interest, but I hope after he gets the profits he stops calling himself poor because it's not true and it's annoying when he denies having money. It's like he's trying to cling to that relatability but then you see all the videos showcasing their million dollar-looking house and it's like honestly just stfu.

2017 gave us snsd 10th anni album and bts YNWA and LY her

I've been trying to stay off the internet and away from all the news to grieve, but I'm also constantly looking for updates, so it's hard not to be affected by it all. While there's still discussion around anonymous malicious comments online, it already seems like most of the kpop community has moved on from Sulli's death. It feels weird to see people going on and posting as if nothing happened. I don't really have anyone irl to talk to about it with, and I honestly don't want to explain the whole situation to family and friends who are not already aware of it, so I've been mourning alone. When f(x) debuted I decided Sulli was my bias because I loved her cheerful personality, and even after she left the group I followed her activities and supported her through all the controversies. After stanning someone for 10 years and for them to suddenly be gone, it feels like a punch in the gut. I've been crying a lot and trying to cope in a healthy manner. Today is the first day since the news broke that I didn't feel so shit, but it's still hard to process it all. I don't know any f(x) stans or fellow Sulli stans, so I just wanted to check up on you guys. My friends are mournful, but none of them cared nor stanned Sulli in the first place so it's hard to talk to them about it with them. I think it's important that we mourn together as fans because no one should mourn alone. And if anyone wants to talk, my DMs are open.

i;m crying my eyes out, i can't even process it

please god no