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i just go clubbing on NYE cause it's lit in my city, other than that i couldn't care less. not doing fire works in -30 c. happy new year everyone!

i met some girl’s ex simp god at the club and that was hilarious I also connected with another soul sister Mess #str8girlthings

I’m still laughing about her getting dragged by Cardi B when she wrote an entire thread about how bad she was

My heart is with everyone. I have waited a while to post but SHINee have always had my favourite complete albums. The other day in my car the aux started playing "View" and I had to shut it off to prevent myself from breaking down. I have been a KPOP fan since prior to the "golden age" so I got to see SHINee's influence and power over the industry grow. I saw them go from 5 synchronized to 5 unique and wow, Jjong was so unique. He was my favourite member since I used to be a vocalist and I take a huge liking to main vocals. I watched their audition tapes, stalked their debut and read about their individual profiles. I could tell Jjong had an old soul and a heavy heart from how he carried himself, you could feel the emotion and weight in his music. I remember posting an entire essay about his first solo release back on my FB profile and people "????" me about it. Honestly, my heart truly felt so much pain because I have been at these low points. I am so proud of the resilience you are all showing and strength. Please continue to comfort each other and show how strong we can be together when faced with tragedy. I am always here to talk to whomever needs it, so don't be afraid to let it out if you must. Bless you all. RIP Jjong. <3

i forgot to wish everyone a merry christmas! have a happy new year if i don't post by then too... i celebrate eid twice a year so i never really have christmas on my mind, though i really enjoy the festivities/decor and hope you have a good holiday. have some great holidays this year and hug your family/friends (can be the same for some), don't take them fore-granted.

Thank you. Anything to help others even if there is a sting involved when I talk about it. I feel like just being genuine is more helpful than anything else. People sometimes need someone who can relate. :( Thank you. I think I’ve come a long way from it controlling me. I still visit her but I’m not as emotionally broken as before, I really think Didi has played a huge role in making me happy. I remember the It Gets Better being used in LGBT but a lot of mental illness groups have adopted saying it now too. Personally, I think they should stick to phrases that support seeking counselling and recognizing the bad.

Thank you. I'm not even sure I remember I just remember being a douchebag in general. It's really okay, thank you. <3 I'm a stronger person because of it. LMAO you are so wrong for this. At least I laughed... way too hard. Thank you. <3 I didn't mean to distract from anyone's pain but rather be a fountain of hope I guess. I really thought I wouldn't make it another year but here I am. I mean I'm not gonna deny being completely messed up by it sometimes but each day is progressively better and I think I've constructed a healthier mindset about life in general.

Thank you, Yana. I noticed that even though this is sad, there is a unity among people when they are sad and this comforting - even if it's temporary - is important because it can be the difference for a lot of people. It definitely made a huge difference for me at the time and I had about a long time to recollect my thoughts and evaluate some important decisions. I also realize I was mean to you in the past... I'm really sorry. I hope you can forgive me because I was pretty immature at the time and mostly acted out of insecurity.

For depression in general, the "it gets better" narrative is problematic. The unique depression and anxiety that stems from grief though (I'm aware it can even exacerbate an existing mental illness) does get better sometimes. It doesn't get easier, it isn't a good feeling it's an absolutely shitty one... but eventually the grief can be dealt with through appropriate counselling and coping measures. If it develops into a more serious illness it can be dealt with but for the time being a lot of people are experiencing momentary grief with the exception of those who already have underlying conditions.

I have a space engineering final I should be studying for but this news is overwhelming. I feel like the level to which we immortalize idols is so insane, I can’t believe I used to harbour those same ridiculous expectations. I’m glad I matured beyond that point and realized the toxicity that surrounds that mindset.

I can’t believe he is gone. :( My heart is so broken. I was an avid fan in their debut and kinda focused more on other groups later on but it’s not any less sad. He was always my favourite along with Key and my heart is hurting for his family. I feel so sorry for his sister having to read that, how painful to lose a loved one like that.

i disagree with the dc vs marvel thing for one reason: BvS put me to sleep pretty damn hard and i gave it a shot without any pre-judgement having seen deadpool. i liked deadpool, but it wasn't my favourite and neither was the avengers. i absolutely adored nolan's films, but snyder is not as great of a director as he is for the general public. i think it only appeals to diehard DC fans, which is nice for them but once in a while having a casual enjoyable film would be fun. i absolutely feel nothing but sympathy for his tragedy, his loss of a loved one is sad and he shouldn't have to be subject to torment by immature people, i think these people make up the ridiculous portion of found commonly found in the kpop community as well. thor was actually a really good movie. it was pretty funny and had the appropriate balance of being sad, some action and smiles. there was a whole lot of cheese but i think that's just the new marvel shtick that's selling movies and PLS tom hiddleston is great. how do you not love the guy! it's definitely possible to like both. TDK triology are my favourite of the movies made for DC just because they were amazing... let's not forget marvel still has weaknesses like its cash cow spiderman (i think only this reboot was considered better, but all the others were sO BAD) and x-men sucked. topped with perfect:

peekaboo is the best thing i've heard out of RV i'm a fan now

i like this song

lul don't even feel bad hardly anyone uses this anymore

issa birthday ting going ghost again

i am, surprisingly. thank you! may whatever high being above bless your union & don't listen to other people - if y'all are happy and can make it work, it will work. you're not as young as i was & i survived so you'll be fine. also yea i was gonna bring up the fact that you decided to kill snsd LMAO. ty for doing that, those bitches needed to FALL (still salty since 2014 [original disband date] tbh)

thank you <3 ; o ;

congratulations

@den enda xD

tory LANEZ WAS SO FUCKING LITTT! LIKE OH MY GOD he's such a great performer, the key arrangements were so good and this guy crowd surfed!!! honestly i couldn't handle dj four korners or whatever's nearly 2 hour set but tory was so gooooood <3333 ughh what a good close :( just sad it couldn't go longer

that would be so fun TT too bad im in school again rip

hell yeaa it's free for students will try to upload content