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Okay, let me be honest with myself and admit that all this bitterness is due to you guys having that in your room, and none in mine. I think you're all selfish, arrogant, and pretentious. Let me repeat that and in bold letters - YOU'RE SELFISH, ARROGANT, AND PRETENTIOUS. And let's add this very important note - HYPOCRITES. I know that I'll regret thinking and saying all these once I calm down. But at this moment, I really can't control my emotions and so I hate you for your selfishness, arrogance, pretentiousness, and straight up hypocrisy.

I don't think that's a necessity. You come up with so many reasons to spend. If I were to handle your money, I definitely won't touch it and look for a new property to purchase instead. I am so disappointed at how irresponsible you've become. You're only this complacent and proud because you have us. I tell you, I will leave you all really soon because our minds and priorities don't match.

Had to delete it because I felt like it's only attracting negativity. Way too much negativity. I regret bringing it back to my memory. But maybe, I just wanted to let it out, like out loud. For people to hear me and empathize with me. Now I'm good. Enough with all these reactions and incitement. Too much of it only resulted to toxicity. It's suffocating. Also have to adjust my body clock yet again. I have to distance myself once again. Man this happens quite too often, it's exhausting. I want my alone time back, my silence, and peace. I need to recharge. Don't bother me. Please, please, please. Your negativity is too poisonous for my sanity. Tried to block out your words, tried to sing in my head, but all that failed. I will stay away. Your thoughts and words are too unhealthy for my mental state. For the nth time, please leave me alone.

I don't understand why people have to blame the agencies so hard when they don't debut this and that trainee. They can't promise to debut everyone. It's a tough competition all trainees signed up for from the beginning. And some things are just not meant for us, no matter how badly we want it.

Most idols overdo doing hand gestures (hand heart, finger heart, etc.) on photos. It's sometimes cringey and I can't see their beautiful faces.

I'm happy that I'm finally getting used to Kill This Love. I still don't like the chorus, but everything else is now okay. I don't like to hate them, so it's good that the song is slowly growing on me. This never happened with DNA and Idol. I never liked those songs no matter how much I tried.

So hot. Summer has to end soon. Yey, my first Japanese book! Thank God there's a Japan surplus store nearby. Got my favorite book, it's cheap, love the yellow flower I found in between pages, and I'm loving all their displayed furniture pieces. Someday soon I'll buy one or new and upgrade them. Soon, when my own house is ready. I'm excited.

Gone braless outdoors for the first time and it's the most comfortable and liberating feeling ever. I need more dark colored shirts. Nope, I still don't like it. I don't think I'll ever like it. The choreo is just as bad as the song. I truly like them, but not these releases. Sad

I don't really like it. For now. I miss 2016. I miss the first half of 2018.

So grateful for my 2-year old nephew who video calls me every time he has his mom's phone with him. He's the sweetest. Thank You for this adorable little bunny.

Okay so it's because of my period. So hard to be honest even with yourself when you're trying to get into this belief.

I need some serious motivation. And I need a new laptop!

Yes I'm desperate and lonely. Only today. I did nothing too productive. Things will change by tomorrow.

Okay I'm losing my mind here. Just one at a time please. TS TM1/TM2 10G JVoc KVoc YT1 YT2 Ahhhhhh my life

Kanji is going to be the death of me.

Reading these books and learning foreign languages at the same time was such a bad idea. My waking hours always feel so tight. It's frustrating and too exhausting. Now one book down, hopefully things will get a lot easier from here.

I always fall for the awkward and cringey ones 😑

I'll never feel sorry about you again. You deserve all these punishments. ~ Your fault for being fake and talking badly about people so often. You're not the benchmark of this humanity. You ain't that saintly either. You're just as sinful as the rest of us are. I've lost a lot of my respect in you because of how harshly you criticize so many people. Their preferences and actions are none of your business. Mind your own flaws. ~ Be happy about other people's success.

Still aiming for it. Not giving up.

You're sad, not depressed.

Day 15 practice is incredibly effective. Does heal bad relationship for sure.

Just realized that I actually like and admire Bobby's personality. He has his own world, doesn't give a damn, he's confident, and he's always having fun. I wanna be like him.

Busy all day: Gratitude journal Magic advanced reading Power daily chapter Secret daily stories Magic daily practice Visualization 2's Japanese reading practice 2's OYTG edit/upload Soon: + Korean reading practice Wants: New laptop Sell old clothes Cordless jigsaw/circular saw Cordless drill 10 storage boxes

Excited for tomorrow's task. And for today, please work on that video now... Please!

Stop taunting me. You're not funny. I gotta stop you because you find it funny, but it's not. You're rude. I'm not gonna let you go on like this. I'm building a wall between us till you learn how to give respect.