lilkay45

I made a post about this more than a year ago maybe?? I feel the same as you. I only keep up with my favs now and even then I’m not as updated. Many of the music outside of my favs, don’t really interest me as much. I think it may be for the attachment to me, which is why It’s harder for me to get into new music. It’s fine that I’m not as passionate about music in general anymore. I’m the same as you, I don’t really have another genre of music I like. So when I felt that last year and a bit of this year, it felt daunting. Now I don’t try to force myself to listen to new music unless I hear a song I that interest me and/or when my favs do recommend a song or list their favorite songs on interviews or their own playlist, I give it a chance. If I like it, I’ll add it to my playlist. If I don’t, then I’ll pass. As for content, I don’t really watch vlives and run /vapp variety episodes to begin with, so I don’t keep up with that before. It wasn’t until when the lockdown started that I started watching vlives live. I live 14 hours behind Korean time, so when they do their vlives, I’m usually sleeping. But now since I sleep late since I don’t have work for the time being, I sometimes catch them live and it’s refreshing to see BTS do crafts. But if it’s usually like interviews or interesting videos the upload on their channels, I might watch it.

Be the best version of yourself. Idk if it’s the best advices but that is something I’m trying to achieve this as well. I do agree with people, you shouldn’t rely on society for your worth. However, what can you do to improve your confidence? Is it your looks? Let’s try to find some fashion that suits you the most and that enhance your best features. Same thing with makeup. What about body image? You can always try to work out and get into shape. Talk to a personal trainer or someone you may know that works out a lot for help. Know that this will help you to a certain extent. You can change everything on the outside but you can’t change in the inside. However I do believe once you feel more attractive, you will feel more confident. But make sure this is what you want and not what society wants. But also accept that there is a certain extent that you can change on the outside and no one really fits in society standards. It’s okay not to fit in. Nomatter where you go, someone will find you attractive or ugly. It’s all about preferences. You can get plastic surgery and all but it won’t change the way you feel, if you yourself don’t feel good about yourself. This will take some work and probably the balance is different for everyone. What about your personality traits? What is the best thing about yourself?Your inside/personality is what keeps people around and attracts people too. In the end, it’s all about the growth. You can have a glow up inside and outside. I hope this made sense. Im typing in the phone and it’s late at night lol. Fighting!

I think they are coming back soon. The boys have change their hair colors multiple time and have tried to hide it (but failed lol). The boys themselves said on vlive that the new Choreography is really hard and Taehyun spoiled something on their recent vlive. The look on Soobin’s face was hilarious when Tae spoiled it lol. The only question is when. It seems like it will be in May.

Hello folks, how are y’all doing during this quarantine? I’ve been up and down. I am a hypochondriac so this time ain’t easy for me and I feel like I become a even more aware of possible symptoms and more due to covid 19 or other illnesses. It’s been tough. I definitely know I’m not alone out there but wanted to rant it out and see anyone else can relate to me. I live in the USA (where test kits are limited) and I did call my doctor a couple days ago about something else (not covid 19) but she didn’t want me to go to the office because it can risk the chance of exposure. So for now I’m just doing the exercises I can and try to keep up my mental state. I have seen a therapist before about hypochondriac but it was about three years ago. I’ve looked into online options but currently out of a job due to the Coronavirus and also reading the reviews on better help, makes me scare of trying it out.

Song is giving lowkey fifty shades of grey vibes. Happy (late if it already passed for you) Valentine’s Day!

u tell them Daehwi!!

Having quarter life crisis at 25. Don’t know who I am and what do I like anymore.I feel like I don’t have my interests or hobbies anymore other than sitting in front of a tv and watching drama. Everything gets a little interesting and then suddenly fucken boring. Applying to new jobs have been fucken hard, don’t know what to even to apply for anymore. Stuck at the dead end job that pays shit. Lately been feeling lonely too. Whenever I talk to friends, I feel like they don’t understand what I’m going thru and idk it just burns. It makes me even feel more alone. Haven’t talk to parents yet because they wouldn’t understand either. They just stay silent and do other stuff when i them serious things. Not sure what my next step is but hopefully i will know soon.

Yea. Especially last year and this year. Mainly this year with music in general. I think it may be that I’ve been into Kpop like. I’ve been into it for almost 12 years now. As for music, idk I don’t really like anything released this year Kpop or not. I’ve been listening to podcasts way more. I only focus on my favs now, BTS and AB6IX. I also do like some of jeong sewoon songs but it’s not like I love it . The only song I genuinely like without liking the group is Txt’s crown. Maybe I’m just getting over music in general? Or maybe I just need a break from music.

Ugh I’m super frustrated with how brand new is managing ab6ix. I think they need to optimize their seo better. Also they need a lot more buzz on social media. And it’s been a fucken day and yet it is still not on Apple Music yet (at least for us locations, even canada has it) like wtf are you doing? Idk I’m just so frustrated. They also need a better graphic designer.

I honestly feel so alone right now even though I know I’m not. It is that hard to show some compassion for someone goes going thru a hard time?

Ab6ix is going to KCON NY. I hope they come to KCON la too. 😭

I didn’t think the whole Seungri’s scandal would affect me this much. Big Bang, F.T island, Jung Joon young, CN blue were never my favs but it hurts to think what some of the members have done and what the victims had to go thru. I didn’t think I was this attached to kpop since I felt like i was kind of getting over it but it definitely hurts right now. I’m really scared that my favorite idols could be like this or end up like those trashy men. One thing I learn is to definitely distant myself and not be attached to idols. Which is kind of hard because I’m already attached tbh. More than I’ll like to be. :( My feelings are all over the place. - Also I never been a confident person. I always have low self esteem. I hope to learn to have a bit more confidence in 2019 and slowly grow from there.

Don’t know if this is an unpopular opinion but I much prefer high school over college. In high school, I was more active, made more friends and made good memories. The only good thing about college was more freedom and financial aid. All I did in college was go to school and work. I went to a college where most people commute, so it was hard to make friends already. I did join a club and was active about a year but honestly it fell apart pretty easily. It wasn’t only me too. Our school used to have confession page on Facebook and people would submit their anonymous post and many people felt the same about the college we went to. I don’t really talk to my friends I made in college much anymore , while I keep in touch with my hs friends.

Although I can see why some fans are upset, but I’m so annoyed that some fans are mad at BNM for putting daehwi and woojin to perform at the bnm family concert. It’s just one day. Ahjshshshs I just hope Rhymer and BNM knows what he’s doing. I see some people are already guessing that brand new might fuck up bnm boys. I really hope that won’t be the case. :( it’s upsetting me more than I thought. I hope that the bnm boys become big and prove those people wrong.

Don’t people get tired of arguing? I like to be right too but gosh when it keeps on going, it’s like what’s the point? What are you gonna gain if the other person shuts up? Just because they shut up doesn’t mean they agree with you.

Lots of things going downhill at the moment. Physically and mentally. Acid reflux, family problems, still trying to find a full time job, lots of emotional stuff, etc. I hope that everything will be better soon.

I really should of taken better care of my teeth. One of the right lower teeth hurts/numb. T.T I hate that my dentists doesn't open on Fridays and I can't go on Saturday because I have work.

Job hunting is soul sucking. #thestruggleisreal

oh.... the things you learn once you get into the adult world/ work field

Debating if I should go to wanna one's concert or not in San Jose. Its about a 6 hours drive from where I live but no one wants to go with me. My parents probably won't get why I'm going all the way to San Jose to watch a concert and won't feel safe with me driving by myself. Although I could afford the entire trip, Idk If want to spend that much on it...... I feel like such a mess. Idk what I want to do.

This is gonna be a long week. I pray that I will survive this.

Are you perhaps an art major of some kind? Like photography, graphic design, etc??? I’m a graphic design major and about to graduate. I had to pay for an expensive portfolio and shipping too and I feel your pain.

I keep dreading and dreading my portfolio stuff.................. idk what I want anymore.