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Hello this is her older sister and I see you all showing concerns about her and I thank you all for that. She is currently sleeping here in the hospital and is okay. Our parents and I never knew she was currently going through something alone because we thought everything was okay now. It hurts me to know that she was hating me even though I know it was her eating disorder talking, but what hurts me more is that she thinks that our parents and I were getting tired of her. Hell no, we love her so much. We knew about her eating disorder and even helped her go through recovery until now. We thought she was doing fine because she never show any signs she even keeps on laughing while watching rupaul's drag race before we all went to sleep but we never thought she was planning to end her life. I was so glad I decided to go out of my room to check up on her before I finally go to sleep and there I saw her trying to kill herself with sleeping pills that I don't know where she got it from. She was convulsing, vomiting and barely conscious that we rushed her to ER and when we arrived there we found deep cuts on both of her thighs and luckily the doctor said she will be fine. I'm so devastated. I never expected this to happen. We love her so much. She is only 16 and we almost lose her to suicide. Is there any other ways that I can help her? I love her so much and I'm not allowing this to happen again.

I'm sorry If I have to let this out here after being gone for a year but I have nowhere to go but here, I just want to say I am so tired of waking up everyday, looking at the mirror and see an ugly fat girl, worrying what to eat, calculating how much did I ate, hating my older sister and friends because they're so skinny and worrying about my future. I hate myself so much. I hate myself so much for making myself this way. I hate how I turned kpop into a competition where I have to be thinner than them. I love kpop idols so much I really do but I can't help it but hate myself more every time I see them. they made me feel so shitty about myself. I tried everything to recover but it fucked me over. Everything that I've worked for to be 84 pounds is all gone in a blink of an eye. I'm on 124 pounds now and I am so disgusted of myself. I am so ashamed that I just wanna rip my skin and get the fats out of there. I'm such a fucking pig. I'm sure my parents and sister are tired of me now and my friends? well they're all gone now thanks to my mental illness. Since I'm living my life this way, slowly killing myself, why not just kill myself now? Everyone is asleep now, its a perfect opportunity for me to end all this pain. Goodbye.

im so sad la show sold out so fast why tf did they even booked such a small venues

POWER UP IS SO FUCKING GOOD OMG I SHOULDN'T HAVE UNDERISTIMATED IT AT FIRST

wenhope is cute

i can't believe it that we are finally getting a high budget music video

Thanks!

sig please

i knew i would flopped lmfaooo bye!

9muses hurt locker

haru haru big bang

bts boy in luv

mr potter dia

sounds like ariana's song

my internet suck soooo bad im almost quitting

same

rv rookie

sorry sorry suju????

cover up taeyeon

omg internet please cooperate with me

knock knock twice

i'll try playing this even though i know i'll flop

Still no light stick???

was music bank the one who booked the hotel or nah?

kinda sad that theres no run away stage on red velvet's concert..